Showing results for tags '50+'.
Found 3 results
Previously, I preferred to look at the world through rose-colored glasses. "All will be ok and I will be fine." Well, since we're all here together, you can see where that got me. I've been on a journey. To find myself and move forward...with myself...regardless of what is in my way. It's been a journey that started about 5 years ago. I had many life situations that happened around me, affecting me, but not about me. I tried to help, nuture, parent, be a good daughter, be a good friend, excel in my job, help finance people's problems. I did this while trying to complete my college degree. It was the first big thing in my life that I've accomplished. I am the only person in my immediate family to complete college. Then all went downhill and I finally hit a wall. Everything I thought was good was not. Everything I thought I could fix, could not be fixed. I made a decision then to stop looking at the world through rose-colored glasses. So now, I'm calling myself a newbie realist. This comes to me now because I FINALLY stopped looking at my weight loss through those rose-colored glasses. I stopped thinking that eating more than one item off plan was going to be ok. It's not going to be ok if I want to get to goal. I also stopped thinking that if I don't do some sort of exercise, I'll still lose weight when I get closer to goal. Am I near goal now - HECK NO! But I now realize if I don't start something now, I won't get into a groove, making it an every-day occurrence later in my journey. I also made a commitment to get to the real goal - not a goal that I feel is ok because I can't envision me weighing less. So... not 30 pounds less - the real goal is 75 pounds less and I'M GOING TO GET THERE. I also realize that I'm not going to lose 75 pounds overnight. I'm over 55 and it's most likely going to go slow. Bummer. But it's real. I've realized that I can't do this alone, but I really don't have have much home support. Bummer again. But it's real. Life is real. I will have to deal with this the rest of my life. It's not a "get thin quick" program for me. It's a "make it stick" program. My consultant is amazing. I lean on her when I have to. She's given me so much help and information. I also lean on reading the blogs and forums. This was never something I did - documenting my feelings or writing down what I ate. I'm actually shocked I'm doing it! But I am doing it. Hands up for the Realist!
I'm writing this here now. My future goals. I don't want to overwhelm myself with all I want to accomplish at once. So, I'm putting this in writing to remind myself what I would love to accomplish as I get healthier. Later in my journey, I want to view this and see how far I've come. This year's goal was to get my physical health in order. I'm on my way. I've been working with doctors to make sure my health is in check. They're actually listening to me! Now I have no excuses as to why I can't lose weight - not even menopause. Enter Jenny Craig. So here's the rest on my wish list: getting to 10% documenting my journey walking the neighborhood with my dogs (they're not good walkers right now) making exercise part of breathing - doing it every day completing the Adirondack Fire Tower Challenge (1 down, 28 to go!) Hiking the beginner to mid-level mountains of the 46 High Peaks in the Adirondacks (many are expert level hikes) learning to enjoy food reaching 75 lb weight loss goal before Summer 2018
So... here I am. I'm not new to this. In fact, I probably could become a weight loss consultant myself! This is my third time being back at Jenny Craig. If anything, I'm consistent at returning. But why am I here ... again? Well, if you're like me, you've tried everything and anything on the planet to lose weight and keep it off. You would get so far- seem "ok" with your success; stop the program and then gain it all back.... and sometimes gain more weight than when you last started. You've been so desperate at times, you were willing to sacrifice everything just to lose the weight you've always wanted. Perhaps, like me, you've never been thin. You can't imagine ever being thin .... but you want to be there....thin, healthy, happy, active. Perhaps, like me, you've resigned yourself to always being a "big gal/guy." Perhaps, like me, you've become mad, annoyed, angry (or hangry) saying to yourself - "WHY AM I TRYING TO CONFORM TO WHAT OTHER PEOPLE WANT? I think I'm healthy - so what if I'm overweight? I'm trying to love myself for who I am. I think I look sexy. My clothes look just fine on me." You become resentful of the weight loss people trying to give you rules and making you follow a program. You hate yourself because you've gotten to this point. You stop following the program. You lie to your consultant and say it's all good, then quit. You tell yourself you can do it on your own. Ok. Who am I kidding? I know I'll never be happy until I reach my goal. It's unfinished business for me. It has been for more than 30 years. Today, I'm more than 60 pounds overweight. This IS a challenge. This IS hard, at times. I know can all do it, but not initially on my own. I need to lean on other like-minded people, like my consultant and JC threads to get through the initial phase. I need to recognize that, right now, I don't have the wherewithal to do it myself. Which is why I all got smart and came back to Jenny Craig for the third time. I know it works. I just need to get to the finish line. Check back with me in a few weeks. I want to make sure I remember I wrote this after my first week of "Third Time's a Charm." I'm hopeful that I'll keep up this momentum.