I have come back and forth to Jenny a few times over the years, and now I'm back again. I'm sure I'm not the only one out there who thought that I would NEVER be at the weight I am. I lost weight after having both of my kids, but after some hard knocks by life, lots of emotional eating, a metabolism that I'm sure is slowing down, I'm around 80 pounds above my ideal weight. Even writing those words is just crazy to me! In my mind I still think, "It's not that bad." And thats why I most likely keep going out and overeating. I always LOVE to read peoples stats, journeys, and success stories, so I'm going to give you mine. I'm 36, two kids (9 and 6, so the baby weight excuse isn't holding up in the same way anymore), I am 5'1, and I currently weight 217. DEAR GOD. My goal weight is 130. My first goal weight is 160. My first first goal weight is 195. I just want to get out of the 200's. I've tried all the diets out there, but the fact is that I just can't come to grips about doing a ketosis plan again, or some plan where 'calories don't matter' as long as I'm eating certain things, or even a plan where I have to cook and meal plan right now. I've got so much going on in my life that the idea of grabbing something out of the freezer and knowing that if I eat it (and not anything else) I WILL lose. Its about patience for me, and getting comfortable that it won't happen overnight. Its about getting comfortable with not eating as much as I want, and about just not stopping. I started Jenny again last week, but I honestly wasn't prepared for how hungry I was going to be. It shocked me. I was stressed several times and I thought, its not really going to matter if I eat more, or eat off plan, and just fell right into my excuses again. And guess what, I gained two pounds. Talk about going in for your week 1 weigh in and gaining weight. Hard to justify that one in your head. The bottom line is that the only person I'm letting down is myself. I can use this time or I can waste this time. Chose to use it, start again, and give myself some tough love. I want to be able to run with my kids, wear the millions of clothes in my closet that are so flipping cute but don't fit. I want to do the things I want to do in life, hike, swim, dress up, feel pretty and confident, without my weight being an ever present issue. I also want to LIVE for a long time, and experience actual health.