I figured it out! If I exercise and eat Jenny, I lose weight...who knew? This seems kind of strange because I am not suffering like I used to when I was dieting . When I get on the scale now, I don't feel quiet rage; I feel disbelief at the progress I am making. Now, you all know I had some tricky weeks where I was losing 1-2 lbs and I was not happy. I now weigh at night instead of in the morning and I think that makes a difference. I think I weigh less at night (I see you, don't laugh …go ahead, the laughter is good for you).
This is the first time I have been less than 300 lbs in over ten years and I am in shock a little. The only time I am tempted is when I haven't eaten one of my meals on time and I am hungry. Oh and my friend, I saw her today and I told her that I had lost 25 lbs and she snapped, "I don't want to hear about it!" and then under her breath she said, "I gained all my weight back!" I told her that it was ok because she could lose it again and that was life with all its ups and downs. I then made her laugh when I told her I was going to write about her in my blog. She said not to use her name and I laughed and said, “I describe you so well they don’t need your name, they will come up to you and say, “Hey, aren’t you the one in T.A.P.’s blog?” She laughed hysterically and that was all I was really trying to do, make her laugh.
My life is positive now. I am starting a new job that will prepare me for law school and I feel positive. I don't speak with a negative tone and I don't hang with negative people. It has really changed my life. I feel happy and I sing in the car and in the shower and probably in my sleep too .
This blog is great and it helps, if you let it. We are all trying to make ourselves healthier. I found a way to lift my "pouch" by using my upper torso muscles. I usually end up laughing and I can't keep going, but I am up to 25 now and...don't laugh...I can swear that I see a partial ab or something forming.
Now, for the big finish, I have 50 America's Finest chocolate bars in my refrigerator. I bought a box and a partial box from my co-workers (for their kids, you know the candy drive?) and I was selling them at my choir rehearsal and donating the money to a lady who is helping out a homeless shelter by buying toiletries, coats, scarves and socks. Believe it or not, it has been cold in Los Angeles for a few nights (and days too).
I had to transport them home in my trunk on Friday, a real hot day. I laughed at how concerned I was for them sitting in my trunk. I thought to myself, "Hang in there, little chocolate bars, I will have you home soon and then you can go in the nice cool fridge." In former days, I would have eaten the entire box and left a $20 on the table (lol). That won't happen this time and that is really a victory for me. I think I am going to make it this time and so can you.
We are all in this together healthier and I think it is one of the hardest battles any one person can fight, but we are warriors or as my friend says, "We are wearing combat boots and tiaras!" I hope everyone is feeling good about their progress, I wish the very best for all of you. We got this!
Oh and my motivational page link is at the bottom of this post. Stop by and check it out Thank you!