Ten years ago, I was a little heavier. Well, no, I was a lot heavier. I was the heaviest I had ever been. At 4'11" and over 125 lbs., I was seriously overweight, and I needed to make some changes. I had tried WW, dieting on my own, starving myself. The pounds kept creeping up. Finally, I joined Jenny Craig. I won't say that the weight came off magically or anything. But it came off, slowly, at first. Then more quickly. Exercise helped. I hit my first goal. Then, I hit my second goal. I was at the weight I had been when I got married. Then I was below that weight. Now I was looking at new possibilities: hitting targets that put my BMI in the low range of my target BMI. Could I do it? I did. I lost the weight and kept it off for years. My profile picture is me at my thinnest in 2012.
I kept the weight off for years, but something happened after I hit menopause. The weight started to creep back up. At first I would quickly diet. "Exercise self control," I would tell myself, as I basically starved myself for a few days (or longer), living on tea, water, and Diet Coke so that I could slip back into those elusive skinny jeans. Oh, this is healthy. You are such a wonderful role model. But the pounds were creeping up on me, and the clothes were too tight. I could not hide from the fact that my metabolism had changed, my body was different. On a small frame, I was 10-12 pounds heavier than I wanted to be. Time to face reality.
Anyway, when I stepped on the scale and saw the number, I knew it was time to call JC again. Because I love cake. A lot. But I love being happy and mobile and fitting into my clothes just a little bit more. I think. It all depends on the cake. And what kind of day I've had. And who designed the clothes. So I guess we'll have to see what I love more, cake or fitting into my clothes. I hope those JC chocolate lava cakes are good. My first delivery of food arrives on Thursday, and my JCC calls on Thursday night. I hope she's nice. I hope she's at least a chocoholic. . . .