I'm actively on my journey, but I try not to think too much about it. I'm trying to make it part of my every day life. When I think too much about losing weight, is when I fall off the wagon. I either get frustrated, do the self-hate "why do I have to do this" routine, or tell myself I'm looking good and can splurge...and splurge...and splurge until I get completely off track and then quit.
Well, not now. I can actually visualize myself at goal. For the first time in my life I can visualize goal! You'd think, at 56, I would have hit my goal weight at some point in my life. Well, sadly, no. Nadda. Never as a teen, never as an adult. I've been close, but never at goal. I would use every excuse in the book. Stress being #1 - work stress, extra hours on the job, family stress. So, yeah... stress is my trigger and my excuse for not focusing on my health. I would do the "easy" part of tackling the stress. But now I believe that the past just wasn't "my time" to be at goal. I just wasn't ready to do it. I'd make a half-baked attempt because everyone else wished it for me. But I really didn't care. Until I got so overweight, I had to lose something to feel a teeny bit better. Once I felt a little better, I'd stop. For a person who really needs to lose about 75/80 pounds, feeling better would be around 20-25 pounds.
So, what's different this time? I think I'm still trying to figure that part out. Another thing I wouldn't do is document my journey on paper or in pictures. So... here's my mid-point. I think it's working. I'm not even thinking about quitting. I'm not even stressed about the holiday season.... yet. My JC consultant is my ROCK! I know I wouldn't be here without here.