Well then you have to decide. Are you willing to trade what you want most for what you want now? You've worked all this time, you've had great success, it's been easier than before. It's been less tedious than before (logging every bite...ugh)
So today was the first day of state-mandated testing- yes. You got through it, yes. You got some really good news, check. And now you think it should be party time? You want to reward yourself for the stress and celebrate the good news? You can do that. It is not your planned cheat time. The question is..can you be okay taking some breaths, enjoying your feet up, and having some water? Make a cup of decaf and relish it. Right now is a deciding moment.
Think back to that day by the pool. Your thighs were jiggling, stuck together and you felt embarrassed, old, and slow. You walked slowly to prevent any other jiggles. And I"m sure the slow walking made you look even less vibrant. You don't have to be a perfect model. You never have been, and you never will be, and that is okay.
Are you living your best life now?
What is the best version of you? The one wanting to hide and wear a mu mu, or the one that feels vibrant and alive?
Three months from now, you won't remember this day, this feeling. Three months from today is July 13. Summer will be in full swing. People will be gathering at pools, wearing shorts and flip flops. You might go out on a boat, or to the beach. You want it. I know you want it. You want to be YOUR BEST YOU.
So shut up your whining, drink some water have some free veggies and keep the focus on what you want MOST.
The binge will last for about 30 minutes tops. It will be followed by guilt, bargaining, trying to figure out how to "take it back."
Don't go there.
You've got this.
Meditate, take a walk, snuggle with the cat. Be thankful for this beautiful life, this beautiful season and this simple way to get more healthy.
Be true to you.
Be faithful to you.
Do this for you.