It's the start...and an awakening to how bad it really has been.
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This morning my son weighed in on our family fit bit scale and I saw a number I have NEVER seen on my son. It broke my heart. I failed him.
That is all I could think about is how I created this problem for him and it's my job to fix it before it turns to diabetes or worse.
I know people see my obese son and look at me as the "enabler", and maybe I am? I just don't know exactly what I allowed that caused this big of a problem? I didn't want to believe that I helped him to stay overweight, because I have tried so hard to keep sweets out of the house, no soda, I watch what he eats as much as possible. Where did I go wrong? I never wanted to confirm to him that his weight was excessive, in fear that it would hurt him even more emotionally. But now this morning seeing a number so far off base on him, it shocked me! His first weigh in is 144.1 lbs on a 13 year old. According to the CDC growth charts, my son is suppose to be 100 lbs. It's real and it's now my job to change it. Now, I know I really need to stick with JC with Jake. It's not just me anymore wanting to look good, but my son's health is on the line. I wonder how many moms can relate to wanting the best for their child, yet not knowing where exactly I failed or allowed this problem?
I hope JC will teach my son, what I haven't--healthy portion sizes. Jake is SUPER excited to be able to pick his menu items! He loves that he can pick a dessert too! Something that was banned from our house in the past.
Next week, my son will see success on the scale and he will know he can do this!
First thing I did today was start my new thyroid medication. My energy level was so low and I drank Starbucks constantly and still had no energy. That's when I went to the doctor to get my blood work done. My doctor tested even my vitamin D--everything. We discovered that I was in the "controversial" side of treatment, low but not low enough on the TSH levels. The doctor was hesitant to place me on thyroid meds but I knew that my fatigue was unbearable, so he placed me on a low dose of 25 to start.
Since my appointment is in the afternoon, I know the JC scale is going to read a bit higher. Looking for "light" clothes to wear for my first weigh in.
My first weigh in was 156.0 lbs.
Tell me about your first visit. Were you nervous? Excited?