Yeah, I said it. I'm giving myself a pat on the back. I think us women need to do that every now and then. We don't need other people to do it for us. We need to make sure we're doing it to ourselves, right? So, why am I giving myself a pat on the back? Because I'm rockin' the JC vibe! I got through a potentially destructive day:
I signed up to be a Polling Inspector in our NY general election this year. On Tuesday, I arrived at 5:30 am and readied myself for a long day until 9:30 pm. I actually thought ahead. I packed all my JC non-frozen foods for the day because I just didn't want to be caught off guard. Into my backpack went the cranberry/almond barscotti, the chicken salad meal, the fiesta chicken & rice; a JC chocolate shake, a low-fat mozzerella cheese stick, an apple and ranch snaps. Plus two large containers of coffee and a bottle of water.
I should explain that, in the past, I would NEVER do this. It would be my excuse to go off plan. It's going to be a long day and I need the sustenance, right? How could I let all the lil' ole ladies down when they brought in the baked goods, candies and meals for us as we're working away?
Mindset change: I GOT THIS. I didn't have a single baked good, donut, candy, potato chip (my weakness). I didn't even have the roast pork dinner the church was having for the voters, although I did give a donation in lieu of a meal. Nope! I told them I had goals to meet. I wanted to stay on track, especially during this holiday season. Oh they tried, believe me. They came so close as to even trying to put a donut next to my lips. (WTH!) No thanks, I said. I walked away and went into the bathroom to get away from them for a bit, go potty, and to regroup. What is wrong with people? and why do they think that's funny?? I felt like I was being pressured by a drug dealer! Yeah .... sugar drug dealer. UGH! I let it go and didn't dwell on what just happened.
When the dinner came in from the church for the other inspectors, I had a brief moment of regret that I didn't get my own plate. The food smelled really good. I mean, really, really good! But I breathed in through my nose, counted to 10, and pulled out my JC Chicken & Rice meal. I went into the kitchen and heated it up. And I ate it.
Was it as good as their meal probably tasted (and they did have to let me know how good it tasted)? Not really - I didn't doctor it up in my usual way with more veges. But it worked. I have goals... I'm going to do this. I focused on the voters coming in. I checked them in and did all 3 of our jobs while they ate their meal. Anything to keep me busy as the potato chip bag was opened and the smell was wafting through the room, along with roast pork in alot of gravy. I so wanted a potato chip, but we all know one leads to a whole bag - at least for me - and then complete regret.
They ate their chips; I crunched on my ranch snaps. No worries. As the day went on, I felt stronger. As the day turned into night, I became more invincible. OMG! I said to myself. I'M ACTUALLY DOING THIS!
The night ended and I was so proud of myself - and amazed at who I am becoming.
The takeaway from this? STAY STRONG SISTER! And pat yourself on the back every now and then. You deserve it.
I'm actively on my journey, but I try not to think too much about it. I'm trying to make it part of my every day life. When I think too much about losing weight, is when I fall off the wagon. I either get frustrated, do the self-hate "why do I have to do this" routine, or tell myself I'm looking good and can splurge...and splurge...and splurge until I get completely off track and then quit.
Well, not now. I can actually visualize myself at goal. For the first time in my life I can visualize goal! You'd think, at 56, I would have hit my goal weight at some point in my life. Well, sadly, no. Nadda. Never as a teen, never as an adult. I've been close, but never at goal. I would use every excuse in the book. Stress being #1 - work stress, extra hours on the job, family stress. So, yeah... stress is my trigger and my excuse for not focusing on my health. I would do the "easy" part of tackling the stress. But now I believe that the past just wasn't "my time" to be at goal. I just wasn't ready to do it. I'd make a half-baked attempt because everyone else wished it for me. But I really didn't care. Until I got so overweight, I had to lose something to feel a teeny bit better. Once I felt a little better, I'd stop. For a person who really needs to lose about 75/80 pounds, feeling better would be around 20-25 pounds.
So, what's different this time? I think I'm still trying to figure that part out. Another thing I wouldn't do is document my journey on paper or in pictures. So... here's my mid-point. I think it's working. I'm not even thinking about quitting. I'm not even stressed about the holiday season.... yet. My JC consultant is my ROCK! I know I wouldn't be here without here.
65 pounds down... time to continue this great trend and not eat over feelings.TY. Jenny Craig! Expensive - No! if you compare it to the cost of being heavy - clothes, health, lack of happiness, not fitting on airplane seats etc. I am worth it... and so are you,
OK Just wanting to set it down my plan for handling very high stress client... in hotel all week and working late hours. Goal: Maintain the path forward... lose 2 pounds or so - by keeping it clean.
1) JC French toast for breakfast (Barscotti today on travel day)
2) Lunch JC Loaded or Healthy Steamers - Linguini and Salad with Skinny Girl
3) Dinners- Buy Zoodles at whole foods, Artic Zero fro dessert... and pair with JC entree - lasagna or creamy penne
If out to dinner - have tea with stevia
Snacks - yogurt, fruit
Workout at Orange Theory Tues, Wed, Thur, Sat & Sun
Show up to forum and help others
Next weigh in - success!!! And on to maintenance with a bit more lee way
Key: Handle airport - with Tea, Diet Coke, Green beans for plane
Key: tough times- whatever comes my way - go for a walk. listen to book on tape, hit the gym, make a call. Do not eat something. Everything passes.. and being thin is miraculous and fabulous. Like winning the lottery!!! Size 4-6-8-10-12 Whaaat? This is amazing. Lets keep it
Also work on Quantity - Less veggies per meal.. stomach and digestion will be very helpful...
Due to travel, company, social obligations, and unexpected car repairs, I have been "off plan" for almost 3 weeks in a row! YIKES! Fortunately, I am using my JC menus from prior weeks to try and "re-create" similar menus from my own kitchen. I am still doing the cottage cheese, Greek yogurt with fruit, string cheese, almonds, etc. for my snacks and then trying to create healthy, small-portion meals that are similar to a JC frozen entree. I have been making veggie kabobs, grilled chicken, vegetable soups, tuna and chicken salad, and a breakfast taco, omelette, or egg sandwich. I cook for my Women's Group from church once a week, which actually hasn't been a problem--for some reason, when I am preparing a meal for others, I tend not to eat much because I have no appetite after all the food prep! Hoping to get back on plan next week, but I'm pleased that I have still managed to lose 5 pounds doing my own thing, which is going to be important for maintenance--not to go back to my bad habits and continue cooking healthy options and managing portion sizes. I do need to get my fitness regimen going. I've been walking the dogs a couple days a week and doing some strengthening exercises, but now that it is getting darker earlier, I need to put my exercise DVDs and stationary bike to better use. It is just so hard for me to fit exercise into my schedule on weekdays. I have lost about 10 pounds since I re-started, so I am on track. Lots of people have commented that I look like I have lost weight, and my clothes certainly fit better, although I can't quite go down a dress size quite yet. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow, so I am anxious to see if it has made a difference on my blood work.
I am really enjoying the program so far. I like not having to worry about planning my meals. I am training to do a Turkey Trot on Thanksgiving morning and eating right is giving me more energy! I have a dinner plan for tomorrow night. I am a little nervous about it. Any pointer anyone has would be greatly appreciated! I will eat my meals as planned and save my fats for dinner. Bread and butter is my downfall. I hope I can be strong enough to resist!
I rejoined today. I've been struggling for a while and needed to get some control over my food choices. I think I have finally worked the 1st step of OA. I am truly powerless over food, I am scared but hopeful for the future. I am hoping I can inspire you as you can inspire me!
So here I am. Sitting at the pool. Day 3 of a 7 day trip. For the most part, I feel I'm doing ok with MOMO. We did get vegetables and salad, a roaster chicken and a steak. I'm trying not to over-think my food choices his week. However, I am playing "this-not-that" when it comes to making choices. No doubt, the scale will go up. I just want to keep it to a minimum.
I love how I've grown in my healthy eating thinking. I used to stress about it so much, I would give up and go overboard. Not this time. I actually feel remarkably calm with my food choices.
It's all about a permanent lifestyle, isn't it? So, I went to an hour water aerobics class and I am planning to go to this and a spin class this week too. I guess I'll see how this all pans out when I return.
I've been thinking about this since the day I paid for my trip - my vacation with the girls to Florida. I'm unable to take JC food, so I'll have to wing it. But - we will be stocking the fridge with healthy food. I'm just at a loss as to what it'll be.... that goes with liquor.
My JC consultant and I talked about a plan, but also knowing that I'll at the very least maintain my weight, if not go up a few pounds. I'll talk with her on Thursday before I leave, so I'll at least be able to refocus prior to launch.
While I'm a wine drinker, I'm going to drink Michelob Ultra. After doing some research on the different beers, this is the best tasting for the least amount of carbs and better low calories. [ http://www.shape.com/healthy-eating/healthy-drinks/15-bikini-friendly-beers ]
We'll get salad and I'll definitely get carrots and cucumbers to munch on. There's a yogurt dip I absolutely love - I hope it's in Florida! It's 30 calories for 2 tablespoons - Cedar's Cucumber Garlic Dill Tzatziki. I got it at Sam's Club - hopefully, it's at Wal-Mart where we're shopping!
I'll also get some eggs to quickly heat in the micro with some veges
Other than that, I have no clue what I'm going to do to stay close to plan. Any ideas??
The resort has alot of fitness activities. I'm going to try to hit some - yoga, spin class. But I don't want to go overboard, just work off some of the extra calories.
Uggghhh. This will be my first test since I rejoined. As we're starting into the holiday season soon, it'll be a good test. I'm looking forward to my return trip blog to compare what I say I will do with what I actually did.
This morning, I made it below 200. I'll take it! Two days after my 56th birthday. So, I celebrated... with a nice hike up Poke-O-Moonshine Mountain in the Adirondacks. I took my son and my two cavalier king charles spaniels. The summit is 1450 feet. Lots of inclines! I'm going to feel this tomorrow.
Note:***I will keep this blog entry for one week and add to it. If I binge - I will post it here no matter what!! So let's get through this week - with my plan in tact.... my heart in tact...
Saturday 9/30/17 9AM
Hi Guys - Today i go for my weigh in - I will definitely be up. Last week went pretty well - but Thursday was a night of binging. There's no way that is allowed for on my plan or way of life. For me it is a terrible sign that I may spin out of control and gain the weight back. So clearly it makes me upset!!! These past few weeks work has been incredibly stressful.
All sorts of ideas about bringing all Jenny food with me (Just a mini fridge...and no fridge at office) but the issue is more when I decided to binge... just go do it. Does not matter if I have had a good meal or smaller Jenny meal - none of that matters, Anyway - just wanted to reach out and say this week will be different. I will get back on track and avoid the airport binge. (and other places too).
OK off to the Gym - have not been to the regular gym in a while - but going to get on a bike since my rib hurts form racquet ball.... so going to skip OrangeTheory today... (done: 60 minutes workout - with 30+ minutes at 84% maximum heart rate = 570 calories burned)
Then later go to Jenny Craig...and say hello, talk to JC Consultant, and face the music. For me going every week is key, This will turn around - but if I don't go weigh in - somewhere I will just keep doing this and gain it all back. Not an option.
Tonight - optional Break the fast party for Yom Kippur at family friends house.. i want to go but I wonder if it's the food that beckons me. What if I just go say hi..and then go home? That's rude.. oh the dilemmas. Maybe just stay home. I know she will have a ton of food and I feel like I need to buckle down... hmmm (edit:(I did not go - wise choice)
Sunday 10/1 4:41PM
Today I played golf - and then had lunch at home and then hit Youfit for 30minutes on stepmill and 30 on the bike with my Heart rate monitor from OrangeTheory. Managed to burn about 600 calories. When I started JC and did the stepmill (revolving staircase machine - cruel) I could do 10-20 minutes max at level 6. Not with my OT app - and tracking the workout so I stay at 84% and above of my max heart rate for alot of the workout (2 minute intervals or so) I was doing level 12. Its so amazing to see the progress. And my progress did not come from using the stepmill every day - it came from 1) doing JC and 2) doing 1 hour of the Orange Theory class (30min treadmill or similar and 30 min mixture of rower and body weight or free wieght or TRX strap exercises) with a kick a$$ coach cheering you on and helping you with form. Anyway - 6 months later - I am able to really workout pretty hard at a gym.
Came home and had a whey protein shake that was divine - but also had anytime bar (also amazing). Alot of food at once but that is sort of how I roll. Key is its all within my limits on My Fitness Pal - and I am not binging on potato chips, etc.
I gave @SFMomadvice - no one is ever unhappy on the treadmill... and got myself to the gym today - It was very unplanned and extra. lately I have been in a funk. Works been really hard. The guy I was hoping to date - dumped me...or well really it wasn't working - long distance - and anyway the easy job I had the last twp years has turned a lot harder with my new client and area of focus... So alas - Sue has been stressed out - and not coping well. Well this weekend - I turned it around - and rocked it!! Going to continue this trend into the week - and pursue the 7 clean days of excellence here. One of the tricks with my feelings - that I so don't remember or do - is this too shall pass. Every feeling I have is - just that not a fact. A feeling. It will pass....life changes - there's awesome times and ok times and crappy times. Food is so not the answer. Everything is better being thin and having food in it's place.. Not perfect - but if I were bigger and if I were eating out of control for me it was all harder. So Sue - hang in there. You Got This!
Ok Hair time - blow dry and iron.. it's an ordeal.
For you guys on maintenance the shake is called Unikey Vanilla Whey protein powder (Great product) with 2 tbs PB2 Fit, some ice, a little JC vanilla shake, 10 ounces of water and 1 stevia..and half a banana chopped when it's ripe - and frozen.. total calories - 110+45 ish + 60 + 15 = about 230.
For you guys doing JC and losing... the cookie Dough anytime bar in the freezer is soo good.
yahoo..., food was good this weekend!!! Time to continue this!
weight in home scale 140 yay
Airport food:1 hard boiled egg and 2 cups of coffee with steamed milk
time to kick a$$!
Yes, it's my birthday. I'm 56 years old today. As usual, I'm spending my birthday alone, but it's no big deal. Birthdays at this age aren't that important to me. I'll put a candle on my JC cupcake, blow it out and congratulate myself for staying on Jenny Craig in spite of it being my birthday. The only thing non-plan that I did today was have a skinny salted caramel macchiato and boy oh boy was it good! So.... one milk, right? And 30 extra minutes on the bike.
I will celebrate that I am 1 pound away from ONEDERLAND. My husband even commented that I'm losing my butt (so long as my boobs don't decrease too much, he's happy). I'm noticing that my muffin top is starting to go away. I look forward to the day when there is no muffin top...and I can cross my legs with both cheeks on the chair at the same time. Perhaps my birthday wish should be just that - no muffin top and crossing my legs.
By this time next year, I should down 75 lbs total and on maintenance. That's not a wish, that's a promise to myself and my body.
It's one month. My scale continues to move downward. But I really try not to focus on the scale this time around. I'm trying to focus on what's getting me through and helping me to move forward in my journey to be fit n fabulous.
....I like how I wrote that down - that I don't focus on the scale. WHO AM I KIDDING? I'M ON A WEIGHT LOSS PROGRAM, OF COURSE I CHECK THE SCALE. So many people probably do that: write down BS to make it seem like they're really being a good girl. Online/social media allows us to do that without accountability. Actually, I look at the scale every morning and every night. It's what makes me accountable and shows me what foods make me go up or down the scale. So far, all's well and good and the scale moves down every week. I learned how to use the scale to monitor my food when I was on a pre-JC plan [Back in the day - on LA WL, if anyone remembers that program - when we would weigh in twice a week to check what foods moved the scale.]
I also try focus as much as I can on understanding what works and doesn't this time around so I don't return to square 1 again. I take all that I've learned in the past and apply the good things to what I'm doing now. I've never had this focus before. So many things seemed to be in the way, I said. It's true - if we want to make it true. We all can have something in the way. I used excuses like kids, work, college, moving, husband's work stressors, my health. I was so in control of the other items in my life. I had an innate ability to juggle many things at once. I was known for it - employers sought me out because of my ability to handle the stress. But I could never get in control of weight. It was my crutch and my comfort to escape by eating and watching tv. It was also my comfort to eat at good restaurants or order take-out during a late work night. After all, I deserved it. And then I'd hate myself for not being able to stay in control. Sound familiar? I bet it is for most of us.
Funny, how that isn't what's going on for me today. I actually want to eat healthy. I enjoy discovering new ways to make veges to go with my JC food. This time, it's actually fun! I wish you could understand that, for me, enjoying eating and creating dishes is a very very big deal. Being raised in a German household on "meat and potatoes," I had a love/hate relationship with vegetables and "healthy" food. Today, I really don't know what clicked, but I don't have a hate relationship with food. I actually am enjoying it!
If this is you, what's getting you through it?
I'm writing this here now. My future goals. I don't want to overwhelm myself with all I want to accomplish at once. So, I'm putting this in writing to remind myself what I would love to accomplish as I get healthier. Later in my journey, I want to view this and see how far I've come.
This year's goal was to get my physical health in order. I'm on my way. I've been working with doctors to make sure my health is in check. They're actually listening to me! Now I have no excuses as to why I can't lose weight - not even menopause. Enter Jenny Craig. So here's the rest on my wish list:
getting to 10%
documenting my journey
walking the neighborhood with my dogs (they're not good walkers right now)
making exercise part of breathing - doing it every day
completing the Adirondack Fire Tower Challenge (1 down, 28 to go!)
Hiking the beginner to mid-level mountains of the 46 High Peaks in the Adirondacks (many are expert level hikes)
learning to enjoy food
reaching 75 lb weight loss goal before Summer 2018
Previously, I preferred to look at the world through rose-colored glasses. "All will be ok and I will be fine." Well, since we're all here together, you can see where that got me.
I've been on a journey. To find myself and move forward...with myself...regardless of what is in my way. It's been a journey that started about 5 years ago. I had many life situations that happened around me, affecting me, but not about me. I tried to help, nuture, parent, be a good daughter, be a good friend, excel in my job, help finance people's problems. I did this while trying to complete my college degree. It was the first big thing in my life that I've accomplished. I am the only person in my immediate family to complete college. Then all went downhill and I finally hit a wall. Everything I thought was good was not. Everything I thought I could fix, could not be fixed. I made a decision then to stop looking at the world through rose-colored glasses.
So now, I'm calling myself a newbie realist. This comes to me now because I FINALLY stopped looking at my weight loss through those rose-colored glasses. I stopped thinking that eating more than one item off plan was going to be ok. It's not going to be ok if I want to get to goal. I also stopped thinking that if I don't do some sort of exercise, I'll still lose weight when I get closer to goal. Am I near goal now - HECK NO! But I now realize if I don't start something now, I won't get into a groove, making it an every-day occurrence later in my journey. I also made a commitment to get to the real goal - not a goal that I feel is ok because I can't envision me weighing less. So... not 30 pounds less - the real goal is 75 pounds less and I'M GOING TO GET THERE.
I also realize that I'm not going to lose 75 pounds overnight. I'm over 55 and it's most likely going to go slow. Bummer. But it's real. I've realized that I can't do this alone, but I really don't have have much home support. Bummer again. But it's real. Life is real. I will have to deal with this the rest of my life. It's not a "get thin quick" program for me. It's a "make it stick" program. My consultant is amazing. I lean on her when I have to. She's given me so much help and information. I also lean on reading the blogs and forums.
This was never something I did - documenting my feelings or writing down what I ate. I'm actually shocked I'm doing it! But I am doing it. Hands up for the Realist!
So... here I am. I'm not new to this. In fact, I probably could become a weight loss consultant myself! This is my third time being back at Jenny Craig. If anything, I'm consistent at returning. But why am I here ... again?
Well, if you're like me, you've tried everything and anything on the planet to lose weight and keep it off. You would get so far- seem "ok" with your success; stop the program and then gain it all back.... and sometimes gain more weight than when you last started. You've been so desperate at times, you were willing to sacrifice everything just to lose the weight you've always wanted.
Perhaps, like me, you've never been thin. You can't imagine ever being thin .... but you want to be there....thin, healthy, happy, active. Perhaps, like me, you've resigned yourself to always being a "big gal/guy." Perhaps, like me, you've become mad, annoyed, angry (or hangry) saying to yourself - "WHY AM I TRYING TO CONFORM TO WHAT OTHER PEOPLE WANT? I think I'm healthy - so what if I'm overweight? I'm trying to love myself for who I am. I think I look sexy. My clothes look just fine on me." You become resentful of the weight loss people trying to give you rules and making you follow a program. You hate yourself because you've gotten to this point. You stop following the program. You lie to your consultant and say it's all good, then quit. You tell yourself you can do it on your own.
Ok. Who am I kidding? I know I'll never be happy until I reach my goal. It's unfinished business for me. It has been for more than 30 years. Today, I'm more than 60 pounds overweight. This IS a challenge. This IS hard, at times. I know can all do it, but not initially on my own. I need to lean on other like-minded people, like my consultant and JC threads to get through the initial phase. I need to recognize that, right now, I don't have the wherewithal to do it myself. Which is why I all got smart and came back to Jenny Craig for the third time. I know it works. I just need to get to the finish line.
Check back with me in a few weeks. I want to make sure I remember I wrote this after my first week of "Third Time's a Charm." I'm hopeful that I'll keep up this momentum.
OK So these past two weeks I have been staying at a hotel in Atlanta and eating out for most meals (though they have Publix and Whole Foods... so I did not have to) . Also Drinking wine (a couple of glasses) each night. Net net weigh in this morning - I will be up a pound or three. People say the eating comes form stress- I think it also is insecurity, So surrounded by really bright stars from my company on ,my new project doing something I am not the worlds leading expert in (go figure). creating Decks on information I need to glean - and do not know.... and comparing my self to others.. recipe for uncomfortable feelings. Last night on the plane I ate a bunch - so just acting out like a kid. And that was after a very successful client meeting.
Anyway I talked to my Mom about it... and decided to write down my food. Limit the drinking (No drinking the next 2 weeks) etc. ON my way to JC in a few... so need to plan this out.
@Crayola64always gets me - and said cereal may be a trigger. I think I don't handle lactose well too. So going to put the brakes on that, Make my meals less exciting
Breakfasts - Concierge Lounge or Cafeteria at client.
2 hard boiled eggs (instead of scrambled - where I never know if I took too much and always want more)
Bowl of fresh fruit - how bout using the small lbowl.. cup size gives it boundaries
Snack: Water, water
Lunch JC Chicken Salad Kit and salsd (no onions or broccoli) and Skinny girl dressing - no croutons(Obviously) no chick peas, no Parmesan. Just straight veggies
Snack - Water, water rice cake with PB2, Anytime Bar or Apple, Anytime Bar
Dinner - Whole Foods, Salmon, Veggie, Couscous or brown rice - something not too high in calories (no salda - as I am overdoing the quantity and my body rebels)
Try not to do meal out if I am by myself and not needed for work event
Dessert - Smores Bar
Hey Guys - well just a quick post - as requested - new outfits... I don't have picture of the size 4 jeans and shirt where my stomach shows (a teensy bit). It feels great to be able to maintain here in Atlanta (Avoiding hopefully the worst of Irma).
Yesterday visited JC and met Ashley a terrific consultant in ATL - up .5 pounds - but nothing to worry about (I think I am down today according to the OTF scale 139). So not too worried - but watchful. Making better decisions and maybe skipping breakfast out when I know I have plans tonight for dinner.
Anyhoo- my family (Mom, Sister and her hubby) have all reported in safe and sounds as the winds kick up in Boca.
So meanwhile just got back form OrangeTheory I am sooo glad when it is finished - and so glad I did it. The picture below is with the trainer.... and my new workout pants.. and shirt courtesy of Marshalls. Stripes... that just was not what I used to wear at 207+. So grateful to JC for the 70 pounds or so loss and to all of you. It's so worth it... Keep going no matter what.
Picture is with the ORT coach Lauren. Great Class!
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I don't want to let time take over, and give in to gravity (which begins with the same four letters as grave). All these hormonal emotions standing upright on sensible wedges instead of hot stilletos, brought me to this virtual space for my physical and cyber journey to find my waist line, and confidence again. I placed my first two week order today, but it won't arrive until next Friday. That's okay because I need ready myself with affirmations, prayers, and raindances. although I live in Texas, and post Hurricane Harvey, the former is exclusively metaphorical. I welcome your input and motivation strategies along the way.
I thought I would remind myself what 5 ounces of wine looks like. I find myself short of calories .. and on the low range weight wise - so decided to have some wine tonight. OK so I have wine alot when I go out.. sometimes at home. And it's impt when I am out to know how many calories I am having.
So here's 5 ounces of Matua Sauvignon Blanc. So many foods are easy to overdo and rack up the calories.
I know I shouldn't be annoyed by this, but my boyfriend is also trying to lose weight, and all he did was cut out beer and go to the gym more often, and he has dropped 20 POUNDS in 3 weeks. I have only lost 6 pounds in 2 weeks. Sometimes, I weigh myself in the morning, and I am below 170, and then 6 hours later, while sticking to the plan, I gain 4 pounds. I know that water weight causes fluctuations, but it still sucks that men can lose twice as much weight with less effort than women! I keep reminding myself that I did not gain weight overnight, so I shouldn't expect to lose it overnight. I am also struggling with how to make vegetables more palatable. I really get sick of eating salad, so I am glad Jenny introduced the broccoli with cheese sauce and green beans with olive oil and garlic! I have ulcerative colitis, so eating raw vegetables can be problematic. I need to eat more cooked vegetables, not salad. So, I am exploring ways to substitute cooked vegetables that are easier for me to digest, that I actually LIKE. Exploring vegetarian soup recipes from my collection of cookbooks and the internet.
I am now, officially, an Empty Nester! My daughter graduated from high school and moved in with her father, because he has an apartment within walking distance of the University of New Mexico Campus where she will be attending classes, starting tomorrow. My son now has an apartment with friends and rarely visits me. They no longer require my culinary services, just financial support. My doctor put me on diabetes medications (Invokana and Metformin) awhile ago. I lost 20 pounds, but need to lose another 40 through "lifestyle changes," so I can get off those insidious medications and preserve my kidneys. So, I am back on Jenny Craig. First week went well, but I had to go "off menu" today for social obligation. Local pizza joint, but I did well by choosing salad over slices. Must admit that I feel a little "hungry" and deprived, but I am reminding myself that I need to feed my body healthy food, not junk. Took my son's dog for a 2-mile walk on Saturday and am pleased to report that I wore her out (instead of the other way around--usually she "walks" me!)