I started on this journey not only to become healthy but to better my life experiences. I am scheduled to take three trips abroad and I want the ease of movement I will have when I lose fifty pounds prior to my departure. My first trip isn't until the end of January 2019. I am going on a mission trip to South Africa to spread God's word to the children, some orphans and some with AIDS. I am so looking forward to this trip. At the top of one of my menus on the Motivation line, I put, "I am on a mission to do a mission."
My second trip may be to tour the Holy Land in Israel for the third time, leaving in March 2019. I am not sure I will make the trip again, but I have not ruled it out at this time.
My third trip is a graduation present to myself. I am going to Italy and Greece for two weeks in June 2019.
I have approximately thirty-five pounds to go, but I will continue after I lose the fifty pounds. I am so excited to see less of me. <smile>
Hey yeah guys,
It's been forever since I posted this is my new blog, hopefully I keep at it with this. I'm going back to Jenny tomorrow and starting on Sunday. I've done this program so many times that hopefully this is the last time that I'm on it. I'm gonna work my butt off to be able to keep off this weight because, I'm so tired of the heartburn and being tired all the time. Can't wait to start this journey again and hopefully for the last time. Praying this works, so they say 3 times the charm that it works? about 5th time??
I'll see you guys in a week!
At my center, there is only one consultant that does everything. She is NEVER on time, which is a HUGE problem for me because I go there from work and I need to get home so that I can get my homework done. Today, and every week, my appointment is at 1720 hours (5:20 PM). My consultant didn't see me until approximately 1745 hours (5:45 PM).
Last week at my appointment my consultant started a conversation about which fast food restaurant had the best French fries and then which had the best milkshake. I told her she was making me hungry. Are you seriously having this conversation with me? She is about the size of my pinky and I asked if she had ever done Jenny Craig. Although she said she had done Jenny Craig to lose 10 pounds for a wedding, I didn't believe her. She looks like she has never had a weight problem before in her life. While we were having this conversation I noticed a Chick-Fil-A cup on her desk and I know it was not filled with water.
I would like another consultant but there is only one person working in the center that I go to. This is particularly frustrating since I signed up for the long haul. I would like to get my money back and switch to a shorter program, but not sure if they will allow me to do that. Not sure I want to spend an entire year or more with someone who has no concept of time and doesn't have a clue about my struggle to lose weight.
I have lost a total of 15.8 pounds in three weeks:
Week 01: 10.8
Week 02: 03.8
Week 03: 01.2
This is a marathon for me, not a sprint. I signed up for the long haul.
I did forget my food on Saturday when I went to Family Day with my son at his work. I had a choice of a hot dog or hamburger. The hot dog was huge. So much so I ate nothing else for the rest of the day.
I need to increase my water intake and my activity. Right now I am taking 20-minute walks, which is good considering I wasn't doing anything prior. Unfortunately, I am averaging under 5000 steps when I am used to doing a minimum of 10,000 steps just a couple of years ago. I will have to slowly work up to 10,000 steps again but it probably won't be until after I finish school at the end of August. I didn't do my 20-minute walk on Sunday because I was extremely busy with homework.
Blessings to all on your weight loss journey.
as I don’t eat beef but I am tempting to eat this dish. It looks delicious but can you bring a version in chicken.
Some more variety such as baked chicken wings with plain rice. Chicken rolls baked.
Chicken hot dogs with whole wheat bun.
Thanks for bringing in some more variety in breakfast such as coffee cake and blueberry oat bar. However I strongly urge you to bring back the breakfast mixed berry bar. I extremely loved it or bring in the form of a nutrition bar.
I lost another 2.6#!
I keep thinking I'm tricking the scale - except I wear the same clothes, I eat breakfast and lunch then stop eating/drinking at noon (for my 3pm weigh in), and while weight fluctuates - it doesn't fluctuate by more than 11 pounds!
Easter candy got me one day last week and then AGAIN today at the office. But I'm working from home tomorrow and getting re-focused and re-committed! I love to re-focus and re-commit. I've done it my whole life. BUT I'm finally re-focusing/re-committing the SAME DAY I wander off the plan, instead of waiting for the next Monday, the next 1st of the month, the next whatever. So I had some candies at work. But at dinner, I ate my JC meal, my big salad, and I skipped my snack (I sort of treated it like the candy HAD BEEN my snack. The cut-off eating time helps a lot with this as well. If I'm going to go nuts, it's likely to happen after dinner, after the kids are in bed, when I'm alone, that sort of thing. But since I have a 12 hour window, I have to stop by 7pm (though I've been trying to aim for 6pm... my kids are young, they don't mind an early dinner). I literally put a cookie to my lips, saw that it was 8pm, and stuck it back in the bag. I HAVE NEVER DONE THAT BEFORE!!!
I talk to my 6 year old son a lot about "being strong on the the inside." He's obsessed with strength and speed - he wants to lift weights, he demonstrates his ability to lift heavy objects, it's a thing. So when we're struggling to tell the truth, or to share, or to use kind words - I remind him that these are feats of strength! You have to be really, really strong on the inside to tell the truth, etc.
Well: I think I'M getting strong on the inside! And it's not at all like I anticipated. It's not like I'm suddenly strong enough to execute the perfect plan I've mapped out in the past - vegetarian or vegan eating, cutting out food groups, cutting out sugar completely, etc. I'm not doing those things. BUT I am strong enough to get back on plan after a slip-up, so that it IS just a slip up instead of a habit/addiction/way of life.
I was in a small group (like a Bible study - it's a church thing) a few weeks before I started the program, and we take time to pray and to listen for anything God might be saying. We're real flexible with it - like, instead of agonizing over "was that thought MY thought, or was that God's voice???" we say: just try. If you think you've got a word, share it. Then, others can say, "oh yes, that applies to me!" or not, and it's no pressure. Of course, if anything contradicted the Bible, we wouldn't be down, but otherwise, we just sort of have a "we're practicing" kind of idea. So we all get quiet, and the thing I think God is saying to me is: "no more 'end-of-days' eating". This is what my friends and I call that eating practice in which you are starting a diet tomorrow to you eat everything you can think of that sounds good today - a real binge. And I remember thinking, "I can do that. I can just do that." And so I did for a couple weeks, and then I joined Jenny Craig, and I really feel like I'm getting some honest-to-goodness TRACTION.
This isn't just a 2 pound fluctuation. This isn't a 5 pound loss in one week that came right back the next week.
11.6# is real. 4 weeks on the program - with SOME slip-ups, but NO binges - is real.
Thank for reading!
Quick-ish of recap: I blogged before about how my son got the flu and pnemonia and strep all at once! Well the next day, I found out my Grandfather died. He got the flu the same day as my little one, and passed away at home, in his sleep. We're grateful that it was gentle for him, but even when everything goes the best way one can expect (he was 90, he got to see his great-grandchildren graduate from high school, he didn't want to spend weeks dying in the hospital as he had seen some loved ones endure - and he didn't!) it's still really sad.
So I had an unexpected 500 mile road trip.
I was just starting to get back into my routine, and we had to take my other son, my 6 year old, to the ER for stitches in his face! He tripped and fell against the neighbors' outdoor a/c unit. Again - if it had to happen, we got off easy. It didn't knock out teeth or damage his eye. He didn't break any bones or have a concussion or brain injury.
But srsly - I'm stressed!
I've had some eating off program, so my weight loss has been as follows:
Week 1 - 6 pounds
Week 2 - 1 pound (on my period)
Week 3 - 2 pounds (out of town trip)
Week 4 - that's what I'm in the middle of right now
Week 4 has been good. I decided to fully re-commit to the program, despite my out of town trip including a lot of dining out. Honestly - I think I probably lost more during that week of my period, but it didn't show up BECAUSE of my period, and so the week after, that weight loss showed up even though I didn't expect to see a loss at all!
I also have a lot to lose. So you skinny-minis out there with 15 pounds to lose - don't be tempted toward jealousy. I've got 82 pounds to go just to sneak into a healthy BMI. And I'd honestly like to lose another 20 after that. So with 100 pounds to lose - 9 pounds in 3 weeks is feeling pretty good! I wanted the suggested 16 pounds in 4 weeks, but I doubt I'll lose 7 pounds this week.
Still... you never know. I've been praying a lot - and call me crazy, but I think it makes a big difference. Just asking for God's help to stay on the plan results in better choices, and the day seems to go by more quickly (that is - I'm not watching the clock, willing it to be time to eat again, even though I just finished a meal like 10 mins ago).
I'm in a program (a weight loss bet as a matter of fact - you can check it out here https://hwage.co/95149/ - I get a referral bonus on my prize if you sign up too, no pressure, just full disclosure) right now that if I lose 2-3 per week for the next 5 weeks, I'll win $75! Not a game-changing amount of money - but I really love winning at things, so there's a good emotional motivation right there.
Hope all is well with you!
?Happy St. Patrick's Day!!! ?
So I wanted to share my success from this week! So after being knocked down to a 1200 calorie diet after my disappointing 0.6 lb loss last week, I am excited to tell you that I lost 4.4 lbs this week!!! I made sure I had an empty bladder before my weigh in (since last time I learned that it can add about 0.6 lbs to your weight) and I worked out twice during the week. I never felt hungry and I had a ton of energy.
Lessons learned in my first 3 weeks of JC-RR:
1. Check your plan for correct program (regular or RR)
2. Pee before you get on the scale
3. If you aren't losing weight, talk to your JCC about going down on calories
4. Don't beat yourself up if you cheat one day, you can always come back the next week
Now, I have been asked why I am not telling my mom about being on the plan. It is because of the price of the plan and her lack of success on the plan in the past. She thinks it is a waste of money because she didn't lose. So I am planning on losing enough weight for her to notice the difference in me, and if she asks how I've lost the weight, I'll tell her.
Last week I was extremely busy and rarely had a moment to rest, so I think that may have kept my hunger down. This week will be a challenge because I will be back at work and will have a lot of time sitting and having "boredom hungry". I am going to get some sugar-free gum and hope that it, plus drinking a lot of water, will help to keep me from getting too hungry so I do not over eat and go over my 1200 calories.
I'm on my second week....did great week one lost 7 pounds! In my second week I've remained at the same weight for five days....UGH!
Anyone have suggestions on how to start loosing again? I'm 73 years old, am eating just like my weekly menu tells me to eat. Not cheating
on food doing just what I'm suppost to.....! Would love to hear from anyone who maybe has had the same issue.
Today is day 7 on Rapid Results for me. I made it through week one! So much to learn. I'm so thankful everybody on this site is so nice and helpful! My consultant is so knowledgable as well.
This week I learned that you must not mix and match meals on each day, but you can change the order of days. And also tricks to keep the 12 hour replenish time rule.
A little bit about me, I'm 55 years old, happily married, and step mother to 4 children total, two with my hubby. Ages 31-26-18 and now 17. Our 18 year old is off in the Navy, and he has been chosen to be in the Ceremonial Guard, in D.C. for two years! So proud of him! We could watch him on the computer today, marching in a parade. Our just turned 17 year old is a junior in high school. She is very sensitive, and very talented! She likes to play soccer, lacrosse, and run track, and is a good student. However, she reminds me of the saying, "still waters run deep". She is a mystery, at times!
My hubby is supportive of the JC program, so its going well. I don't think I would have lasted, if he wasn't!
I have some good habits developing so far. Of course, the not eating after 8 p.m. is first. Also, no cream and sugar in my tea. Drinking my water, and getting back into exercise. And of course, no night snacking'! That is the hardest!
I do work outside of the home, and am slowly building my own practice as a psych NP. This is a real challenge! If you make it, or you don't, its all on you! I'm kind of an introvert, so having to put myself out there can be tough. Also, learning to run a business and be organized, can be overwhelming. Many days, I doubt myself. Taking care of my patients is the best part. <3 I love when I feel that "click" with the patient. This is the biggest challenge I have going on right now!
The best part of the week was losing 6.8 pounds!!!!
I did not think I would lose that much
My goal is to lose about 50 pounds, I'll see how I feel when I get closer. I'm older, so want to see how my skin looks, lol.
My favorite foods so far: the Cheeseburger, cinnamon rolls, mac and cheese, and chicken fettucini. and any sweet dessert, lol. I didn't like the chicken pot pie!
Well, thats a little bit about my week, and about me!
Thanks, everybody, for making me feel so welcome..........
Today was my first day back on plan after 5 years. I was able to maintain my weight loss over the past years but had a very bad year that has spun me out of control and unable to get my bearings on my own. I'm someone who has always struggled with depression and anxiety, but this past year was marked by a health crisis for my husband and the loss of my father. I have allowed myself some leeway because of the nature of these struggles, but I am very very hard on myself. In the past few months, I've gained about 15 lbs. and as a result have done nothing but beat myself up and spin further into depression. I want to keep myself focused and accountable as I begin this journey. I want to be kinder to myself and as supportive of myself as I truly am of others. I want everyone to be happy and achieve their goals, but when it comes to myself, I struggle with this. So this isn't just about losing 20 lbs. for me. This is about shifting my mindset to one of support and acceptance of myself. I want to celebrate even the smallest of successes and lean on others who truly understand the struggle when obstacles arise. I am hoping to grow as a result of this experience so that I am stronger, not for weighing less, but as a result of slowing down and being kinder and fairer to myself. I am proud of the fact that I made it through the first day successfully. I am proud that I finally took action after months of complaining about being unhappy with how much weight I've gained. I"m ready to do this!
“Knowing Is Not Enough; We Must Apply. Wishing Is Not Enough; We Must Do.”- Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe
I have a routine.
It only took like 10 days, and I have an eating routine. It's awesome.
My eating had become so disordered. I wanted to not keep soda in the house, but then every morning I would wake up scheming to sneak off to McDonald's without being obvious to my family (sometimes impatiently waiting for them to leave the house, one time WALKING b/c I didn't have access to a car!), or I would settle on just going, defensively, or I would suffer until lunch, not thinking about anything but soda. I would get into habits of going to a particular drive through for lunch - and then I would go every day for a month. I volunteer to go to the grocery store, or make up a reason to go ("we need lemon juice") so I could also get a soda and some sweet treats. I would refuse to put any of these items on our regular grocery list, but who was I kidding? I was just acquiring it the expensive... and invconvenient... and dishonest way.
Now, I wake up and drink a glass of water. After a while I have my Jenny breakfast. I'll get some things done and then have any anytime bar. Lunch with a salad. Snack (I have my snacks in the afternoon, when I really feel temped). Dinner and a salad. If I feel like I want something late at night that's off plan, I just go to bed. I'm very well-rested lately!
It's such a dream though - knowing when I want to eat again, there's on-program food waiting for me. I don't feel so panicked. I'm not making schemes to sneak off to fast food (which always made me feel terrible, emotionally AND physically anyway). I remember from an OA program they say, "Three meals a day and life in between." I really feel that. With the plan and with the food prep done for me - I'm really experiencing my LIFE. And since I'm losing weight and making food choices I'm proud of - experiencing life is great. My life is actually really great.
Thanks for reading!
PS My 4 year has made a full recovery from the trifecta. We have a few more days of antibiotics and tamaflu, but his fever and other symptoms are gone and he's back to himself again. Thanks again for the prayers/well wishes!
Good Saturday everyone. Well, I had my weigh in yesterday and only lost 0.6 lbs. I'm sure last Saturday had something to do with it, but I feel it shouldn't be THAT low (please keep in mind I'm on RR). I was on the 1500 cal plan, so my consultant lowered me to 1200 in hopes that I will start to lose. I'm so angry about this! I pay >$160/week for JC and I'm getting absolutely no where. It is so disheartening, and no matter how hard I try, it is putting me into a depression. I'm going to really fight the urge to binge while I'm depressed, but it will be hard.
PS. it isn't just the lack of weight loss that is putting me into a depression; life stressors and family stressors are really taking their toll on me. I just need prayers to whatever you believe in.
Yesterday I posted about my goal to follow the plan precisely. Not aiming for perfection, but also not using "I'd better not be a perfectionist!" as an excuse to eat off plan. One week of eating precisely on plan is possible.
Then I ate my dinner at like 4pm b/c I was hungry! I figured I could has a salad with my family at a normal dinner time.
But that meal didn't turn out how I planned. We took my 4 year old to the ER where he tested positive for the flu AND strep AND pneumonia. We were there from 5-9:30. My husband had a vending machine snack and offered me some - I declined. (Lucky for me, I had already eaten my dinner!)
My baby is going to be okay! We've got a lot of meds and he's already bouncing back having been on antibiotics for more than 24 hours now.
In the past, this would have seemed like an insurmountable obstacle - a perfect excuse (who could blame me?) for going off plan. But I didn't.
I had my crisis, and I didn't need to eat anything over it. I felt my feelings, did the mom thing with a baby who needs help, and I think I ended feeling a lot calmer and more capable b/c I was making food a crutch to get me through the evening. When your legs work fine, a crutch just gets in the way.
Hope you all are having victories too! Let's go get one tomorrow!
"It is a truth universally acknowledged that when one part of your life starts going okay, another falls spectacularly to pieces." That's what Bridget Jones says - and oh, I LOVE Bridget Jones. I was less enthused about the sequels and I haven't read the book, but I have seen that movie a million times.
But I think she's wrong.
I think success in one area tends to beget success in another area. And flailing about in one area tends to cause flailing about all over the place! I've seen this cycle of flailing invade my life - it'll start with work, then my marriage, then the state of my house, then parenting, then social commitments and on and on. But you can ride that cycle in both directions!
Work is better today (I worked late last night in a big push to get a few troublesome projects across the finish line), and what do you know? Staying on plan is going better too! I mean - I think I might always want my sweet snack at about 9:30am, but my plan for the week is to respond to every inclination to make an off-program choice by drinking a glass of water, praying, and waiting 15 minutes. I remember reading that in a People Magazine Half-My-Size issue years and years ago. One of the women who was half her size said she did it with Jenny Craig, and that whenever she was tempted to go off-plan - she'd drink a glass of water and pray.
I'm adopting this strategy for this week. And I can report that I have had a lot of water! Bonus! But so far today, I'm precisely on plan. My goal is to achieve a full week precisely on plan. I'm trying not to say "perfectly" b/c that perfectionism thing is tough and being perfect is not my goal. Still - that doesn't mean I can be precisely on plan for a week. Perfection is unattainable, but eating according to the JC plan IS attainable. I think in the past I've used "better battle perfectionism!" as an excuse to go wild with the off-plan desserts... not exactly a well-intentioned self-care move there. But setting my eyes on a full week precisely on plan? That's something I can do.
So back to my cycle of success: work is better - I'm much less stressed. I'm eating precisely on plan. I got totally dressed/made up before work started today (this is a hazard of working from home), and I'm experiencing a real sense of well-being. I didn't let myself down when the urge to eat my s'mores bar arrived at 9:30. I drank some water, said a prayer, and got back to work. AND my tax refund came in, so we're officially no longer in credit card debt - which feels GREAT! I mean, I filed weeks ago, so I knew this was coming/had the plan established, but actually getting the money and paying the cc (that we've been carrying a balance on forever, hopping from one 0% interest offer to the next) - IT FEELS GREAT!
I've got a bunch to accomplish before the end of my work day, but I feel like it's really do-able. Tonight, I hope to get my desk at home cleared off. I need to put some laundry in. But you know - even if I don't get everything on my to do list done, I have a lot to be thankful for, a lot to enjoy, a lot to feel great about.
Here I go, precisely on plan (food plan anyway) for the week, and giving myself grace on the rest.
Happy Tuesday everyone! It's been a while since I posted, but the only reason is because I kept forgetting to get on to post. Friday I went to my weigh in at JC and only lost 1.6 lbs. This would be great if I wasn't on the RR program. The consultant said I should have lost more, so we discussed my week to see where I fell short. We really could not settle on it. I keep track of my food on MyFitnessPal, so I showed her that I was sticking to the plan religiously. We settled on it just being due to the fact that I wasn't meeting my calorie goal (I wasn't getting over 1200 calories and I'm on the 1500 plan). My body must have been in starvation mode. Turns out, the food plan I was given for week 1 was not the RR plan, but the regular plan!!! So with me being on the regular plan, I was successful!! Now I am on the correct plan and will see how much I lost on Friday. My home scale says I've lost 4-5 lbs since Friday...
Saturday was a busy day for me. I am now the assistant coach for my son's soccer team so I had coach training in the morning. It was rainy and muddy out so it wasn't the most fun. Then, after a trip to Walmart, I came home and took a nap before being picked up to go do a 5k/1k. I joined my mom and a few of our friends for the Wicked Wine Run. It was so much fun, aside from the fact that my mom gave me all her wine so I was responsible for drinking 10 glasses of wine (I only drank 7, dumped 2, and gave 1 to a friend). I can't tell my mom about JC, so I had to just go with it. I told them I was on a diet but they kept telling me that I'm allowed one day to cheat, so I went with that instead of disciplining myself to not drink.
Did I ever mention I am a serious wine-o? I freaking love wine!! ?
So after the run, we went to Red Robin. I ate half of a Royal Robin and a lot of fries. Sunday I woke up at 0200 with a horrible migraine, so I drank 1/2 of a coke and took medication. I think the sulfites in the wine caused the worst migraine in my life, and if you suffer from migraines you can attest to the fact that you will do anything to alleviate the pain. Eventually I went back to sleep and woke up good as new, aside from the overwhelming guilt I felt from letting myself go off the wagon. I have been doing so well with my plan and I jacked it all up on that night. My husband keeps reminding me that I worked out and needed the food, I didn't eat my JC dinner or last 2 snacks, and that the only thing I could do is stick to it again and bounce back. I am doing that now. I do not feel so guilty anymore.
Last night I started 2 new classes. I am excited about it! I'm a sophomore at a university in San Antonio. School is stressful, but I've learned to not eat my stress.
Hope y'all had a great weekend and have a great week!
And I know there's usually a bigger loss in the first week, and I know water weight is a part of it, and I know I'll likely not see another 6 pound weight loss week again, and I know that I'll have to remind myself of that over and over this week so I don't end up disappointed with a good loss for week 2 that won't be in the stratosphere. I know.
But in the meantime - I'm on cloud 9 and I'm going to enjoy it! Six pounds down on my 82 pound journey - that means just 76 pounds left to go. It also means that if I lose 2.2 pounds next week, I'll be 10% of the way there (that is, I will have lost 10% of 82 pounds - the amount I want to lose, not 10% of my body weight).
I've got a full week on the books and I'm so happy with the program!
- There are some foods worth avoiding. I notice my slip-ups were correlated with a meal that I didn't like/finish. I did great with the first meal I didn't like (the pot pie) - I didn't finish it, but I had my salad and I was fine. But 2 days later, it was not the same story.
- Those long walks are really good for my weight loss. Sure - I'm real tired afterwards and a little useless for the rest of the day, but my husband is supportive and it's okay if I'm a little useless toward the end of the day 4 times a week. It's okay to go to bed early.
- Eat the salad - skipping it leads to slipping up!
- When you've finished the meal, don't go wandering around the kitchen.
- Your kids will eat meals that you love and meals that you don't love. Cook the ones you don't love for them right now. It's easier on you.
I made like 5 substitutions to my menu for the upcoming week, which lost me my $16 off, but who cares? I'm not coming to Jenny Craig for my financial health! And the better I do on program, the sooner I'll be at my goal and working on a transition to food that's a bit less expensive. Although, honestly, being healthy is a lot less expensive than being obese!
AND my kids are going on a little trip with my in-laws this weekend, so we'll have a significant reduction of activity/noise/craziness for the weekend. I'll miss them when they're gone, but I confess, I'm looking forward to sleeping in on Saturday and having my house and my husband to myself for a couple days!
I'm totally over soda. I quit cold turkey when I joined the program, and the light headaches I've been getting appear to have ceased. That's a big deal for me.
Lot of wins, big and small. I met with my consultant this week (last week, everyone was at a new hire training, so I had my consultation with the center director). Her name is Maddie, and she's lovely. Very encouraging. She contributes to that wonderful atmosphere of hope and security at the center. This is going great!!!
I fell a little behind on the forums and keeping up with my blog, because last week, I got hit with a NASTY bug... an awful sinus infection!!
It started on Wednesday night, I woke up in the middle of the night with a sore throat, and by Thursday morning I was coughing a lot. I was still functional, it was really just the sore throat at that point, so I kind of prayed that it was allergies and powered through my day.
Well, late Thursday night I woke up and could hardly fall back to sleep, because that's when the sinus problems really started. Oh, boy I was NOT a happy camper. Friday morning, I woke up to terrible sinus pain. I had to survive a client meeting in the morning, but I left right away and went home afterward. I tried to rest, but the pain was so terrible, any shifting at all and my sinuses would just throb and throb. I finally managed to fall asleep at 7pm and woke up on Saturday morning. The pain had gone down by a significant margin, though it was still lingering in the background and I was pretty congested.
But, I committed to work an adoption event at the city shelter that day, so I got my meds, packed a bunch of extra tissues and water, and helped 10 dogs (and 1 cat) get adopted that day! (and by helped, I mean I stood around a lot, but I did answer questions, direct traffic, got people connected with their volunteers and adoption counselors, etc, so it was a lot of "hurry up and wait" but it was good)
So, through all of this, it was really, really hard to eat. I just didn't feel like it. I made myself eat some things, but it was not easy. Then, when I finally got a little bit of appetite back on Saturday night/Sunday, it's like my body latched onto all the food and doesn't want to let it go. Before the sickness set in, I was down a few pounds, and then when I wasn't able to eat, I was down even more. But, when I weighed myself this morning, I'd gained it all back. I deviated from plan just a little bit (I got some hot and sour soup to clear my sinuses, and had some crackers, and I did have a couple cookies when nothing else sounded good but I really needed to eat), but not that much, so I was surprised that it all came back as soon as I was able to eat with a normal appetite again. So, I'm a bit disappointed, but I will keep on trucking - illness just sucks and I had to get through it to get to the other side.
100% on plan yesterday - feels good! And pancakes for breakfast - who doesn't love that?
I'm really excited to weigh in tomorrow, but I've got to buckle down and have a productive work day today! It's hard though. I'm such an all-or-nothing person. I can work like a maniac, really over-working myself, for a period of time, but then I get onto something else and excited about it and I turn into a real scatterbrain about work. I just want to read the forums and fill out my menu and organize my freezer! I don't want to prepare quotes or invoice anyone!
And part of me thinks: That's okay. Use the enthusiasm to really get in the JC groove. It will be good to establish good routines and have things set up for the future when it gets to be less exciting. And the other part of me thinks: Just work. If work suffers then you'll get stressed about it, and work stress is a trigger for off-plan choices!
The second voice is right. I need to work now and then indulge in all my silly JC-centric rituals and meditations this evening! It's just remarkable to me that when things go good it's so much easier for things to KEEP going good! But then, slacking at work is sort of a round-about way to self-sabatoge. So I'll resist that. Off to get my work To Do list complete. Check, check, check. Just like my JC menu.
Ah - there's the option to BLOG! THAT's what I was looking for.
I wrote a couple novels over in the forum boards, but was feeling... I don't know... like what I really wanted was a BLOG!
So I'm on Day 5 and I've had a curious week.
I binged out a little on Day 2 - that breakfast bagel is not the breakfast for me. I negotiated with myself (always a harbinger of an off plan choice) for some fancy cheese spread on the bagel, which tasted pretty good - lots of salt - and next thing you know, I've had 2 more bagels (from my kitchen, like food for my fam, not for me) with all the rest of the cheese.
I'm not sure it's a good idea for me to weigh myself every day - I can get really obsessive about the scale, weighing multiple times in the morning... it just gets silly. So I have been weighing myself a bit, but not writing it down, and certainly not agreeing with that space on my menu for "daily weight." No. BUT I did happen to have weighed myself and seen 227 and then after the binge it was like 229.something, and very discouraging. But I'd written on the front of my menu in the "This week's plan for success:" spot: "Don't overthink it - let the plan do the thinking for you. Just follow the plan."
I was listening to an audio book by a woman who had lost weight, and she happened to say, "Don't overthink it," in the part of the book I was listening to. It called me back! It was just a coincidence I'm sure, but I felt grounded again. Just follow the plan.
So then I strung together several on plan (or almost on plan) days. I had a 200 calorie slip up yesterday, but for the most part, I'm feeling empowered. My weight today was down to 226.something, which put me in a good mood. I'm must not cower in the face of a gain/plateau on the scale though. Which is why I think not weighing might be the better choice for me. Also - I weigh in the morning in light pj's. I'm pretty sure if I weigh on Tues morning like I normally do, I'll be disappointed at my Tuesday 3pm appt when I'll have eaten and drank breakfast and lunch! And I don't want to be disappointed at my appt - I want to be delighted! And I think if I stay on plan today, Monday, and Tuesday, and don't weigh in the mornings, that this is JUST what will happen!
I'm really seeing my time at JC as a training course, or a boot camp maybe! My eating has become really disordered over the years. Part of it has been that I've tried some really serious diets that produce results but are so counter-cultural, they end up being really difficult to stick to... Nutritarianism anyone? And while I believe that Dr. Furhman (author of Eat to Live, and a zillion other books that all say the same thing: you will be healthy if you eat only fruits, vegetables, beans, nuts, and seeds) is exactly right - I need some baby steps toward that kind of eating. Instead, I've just gotten overwhelmed and binged and binged.
So now I'm trying to learn how to eat 3 meals and give myself permission to have 2 snacks every day. I totally believe in ending the eating window fairly early each evening, so I put the evening treat either in the afternoon or as a part of my evening meal. The portion sizes are critical - I'm trying to re-intigrate a proper understanding of a reasonable portion size! And then the routine eating of fruits and vegetables is also something I consider to be a high priority. I've swung wildly in the past between all veg all the time and then none for weeks on end. I need that balance of salads, fruit, and veg every day, but not to the exclusion of other food groups, b/c that's when I really start feeling deprived and a binge sneaks up and grabs me!
I remember from prior JC periods in my life and my mom and I marvelled over the following sitch: "I wanted an off program treat, but I resisted it. An hour later, I realized I felt fine. Like - I would feel exactly the same whether I had the treat or not - it wasn't some magical treat. If I had it, an hour later I would feel fine. If I didn't have it, an hour later I would feel fine. So how about I DON'T have it, save myself the calories, and in addition to feeling the same physically, I can also feel proud of myself for staying on course!"
Sun, Mon, Tues: on program days
Sun, Mon, Tues: no morning weigh ins, so I can be delighted with my Tuesday afternoon weigh in
Stay on task at work, b/c when I feel good about work, it's easy to feel good about the rest, and it's easier to make good decisions!