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[LadyLynda]

After several months of being off program (I was thisclose to goal) I am now almost back to square one...

I always, always let my emotional eating get the better of me. The past 6 months have been ****, daughter in and out of hospitals (bipolar/severe depression), my mom battling stroke AND cancer, and I had to have a hysterectomy three days before Christmas due to precancer issues...

I've finally had enough yesterday. Took "inventory" of what JC foods I had and with a lump in my throat, called my center. However, after an hour and a half of calling and the answering machine picking up, I called another nearby center (where they don't know me, lol). I put in a phone order for two weeks of food.

I know I need to go back to my centre and get an official weigh-in and consult; the food is great, but, it won't keep me on the straight and narrow--I need my JCC to help. And with all this food, I didn't even start today. It's 3:15 pm and I haven't eaten yet (my pattern) and by 5 pm will be so hungry, I'll end up ordering a pizza...

I am sore and tired from surgery, my emotions are all over, and now I feel huge and highly embarrassed on top of it all. My husband and I are celebrating our 50th birthdays together this fall with a trip to central america for three weeks. I want to "wow" him with some pretty swimwear and sundresses--things he's not seen me in for a long time.

With this goal in mind, I have about 8 months to get going. I'm just so tired of the yo-yoing, always letting my emotions dictate how I take care of myself. When others around me are well, then I am well. If they aren't, I always think it's my job to "make" them happy. Of course I know I can't, but still, I'm so readily available at the drop of a hat for anyone else--except me.

[nancy5012]

Oh my Lynda - with everything that has been going on in your life over the past 6 months its no wonder that the healthy eating has taken a backseat.

I am so sorry to hear about your mom, daughter and your own health battles.

But I want to give you a SUPER CONGRATS for making the choice to come back - that is such an important step.

You've lost the weight before on JC - so you already know what to do and you have the tools to do it within you!! It's a new year - now it is time to focus on YOU!!!

The JC food is there - it has your name on it!!! Take it one meal at a time - do a JC meal for dinner - TONIGHT!!! This one step will start you back on track.

As far as being embarrassed....well if I were embarrassed every time I started and stopped I'm sure I could out-embarrass you! We have all been there. Please don't give up on yourself - you can do this!!

I am sending big ((((HUGS))))) to you!

[okapilover]

Oh, man. Give yourself a great big hug from me! I can hear, and feel your pain. Take one meal at a time. That is what I am doing. I have finally decided that that is what is going to help me. You have been through a lot. Food helps us feel like we are taking care of us with all of the emotions that we attach to it. Food is there to take care of our bodies. We just need to learn that food should help us feel better, not worse.

Take care of yourself. You are sooooooooooooo worth it!

Dawn

[Blessed4Life2]

Oh Linda, first of all I want to give you a big cuddly hug ((((HUGS))))

I am so sorry to hear about your woes.....and they are some big ones, but you know what? You have made it this far.....what a warrior you are girl. Your strength is amazing. Just the fact you came here and posted shows you REALLY want this...and I believe in YOU. YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!!

[Free of Concern]

Hi Linda,

I too am sending you a big hug for all that you have been through these past few months. Please don't be embarrassed because your JC Consultant will be so happy to help you out. Losing weight or maintaining a weight loss during trama is so difficult if you do not have a support system in place.

Please come and post often so that we can support and cheer you on.

Take care and take it one step at a time.

You can do this and we are here to help you on your way!

[PinkShimmer]

Lynda, You deserve this! You have been through so much! This is a wonderful thing you are doing for yourself.

Hugs, Terri

[cdgoldilocks]

_{((HUG)). The hardest part is done. You recognize you have gotten off track and went to get food. You CAN do it.}

[I Called Jenny]

Lynda, OMG - you've had MORE than your fair share of problems, hon!! Of course you've had other things on your mind but PLEASE don't let SHAME be one of them.

Congrats on making the decision to come back. You already know it works so that's a HUGE help. You also know that you can go to your JCC or us and get support. We're all here and if there's anyway we can lessen your already full plate of stress, just say the word.

Emotional eating is probably the most difficult challenge for me too. I always envied the people who when they had major stress in their lives they couldn't eat. For me, I would just pull a chair up in front of fridge and inhale countless calories.

But you're healing and losing the weight can only help your overall health and state of mind. And besides, you have that FANTASTIC trip to look forward to and a milestone birthday.

You can do it and we are all here to help you in any way we can.

{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}

[rdsny]

_{Lynda--
You took the first steps you can do this. It's tough but we are here for you. It is hard to break patterns but you can do it
Deb}

[ocmimi]

Hugs to you Lynda. I'm sorry you have been through so much in your life. Congratulations for taking the right steps by joining Jenny and coming to the forums. Now, just take it one day at a time and you will succeed.