Posted 06 May 2011 - 05:04 AM
Hey all.
I have been so busy this week. Eating ok until last night. Some really stressful stuff, a big (not good) surprise at DH's work and well, suffice it to say I hope he continues to be employed by the end of the day and next week. I don't know what we'll do if things turn out the way they are looking right now. I'm totally freaking out. So, I ate way to much last night after I found out what happened yesterday. I am so stupid: I know WHY I eat -- two reasons: (1) at that initial time to forget and drown myself in food and (2) the self-reciminations after ---so now I can spend time beating myself up for this and NOT worry about his job and what we'd do. So, here I sit with those two things going back and forth in my head.
I have the day off today. Tomorrow if Vicky's first communion. My Mom arrives (she lives in NJ) today. We are having our house assessed...didn't know if I told you...got a GREAT deal to refinance the house --- we went from 6% to 5% and I cut 5 years off our loan AND, I keep the same monthly payment! We moved here on May 5, 2005 so we've been here 6 years...we had a 30 year loan. I've got us down to a 20 year now. Could have gone to a 15 year, but it would have upped our montly payment (REALLY glad I didn't do that now). We haven't closed yet..I don't want to do this, but I wonder if we'd save alot monthy if we kept a 25 year loan or even went back to a 30...I don't want to do that, but in light of the events of the last few days, I'm totally freaked. We cannot live on my salary (OK, guess we could, but boy would life have to change...say goodbye to every extra thing other than food, house, and electricity---I don't think we could even handle cable/internet and certainly forget Vicky's piano lessons)....OK, now I'm freaking!
Well, I had best get going. Have to shop, clean and get ready for party. Will head off to the gym for a bit, but not alot of time.
I checked out the DOT fitness thing and its just like the BM, but it has some reference menus and such. And, you get one free session with the fitness/nutrition coaches, but the rest you have to pay for (not happening now), so I'm not sure how helpful it will be. Reference menus are interesting...And, based on my inputed numbers and what I want to loose, they say to eat 1800 cals per day (based on my workouts) --- even to loose. Reference menus are 2000 cals, so you cut off from those. They have them in different categories, like Meditterain diet, lactose free, standard, 40/30/30 (like the Zone idea of 40% carbs, 30% proten and fats)...
Anyway, such is life. I'll let you know what's up. Take care and keep moving!
Jen
Height: 5'8"
Heighest ever: 240 lbs in 2000
Goal: 140
Reached in 2009
No matter what your last choice was, you can make the next one a positive one.
Restart in October 2011: 172
Realistic Goal that I can maintain: 150
10/8: 168.6 (-3.4)
10/15: 167.6 (-1.0)
10/22: 166.2 (-1.4) Just need to do this
10/29: 167.4 (+1.2) WHAT THE BLEEP?! That one is out of nowhere
11/6: 169.6 (+2.2) Well this just sucks.
11/11: 166.0 (-3.6) THANK YOU. GOTTA hang onto this loss!
11/20: 165.6 (-0.4). Yes -- its going down. All I can ask for.
11/28: 167.4 (+1.8). OK I just can't take this anymore.
12/2: NO WI. Super Sick
12/10: 164.0 (-3.4). Much better. Gotta keep it under 165 now.
12/17: 165.6 (+1.6) NOT AGAIN. This just isn't working for me.
12/26: 167.4 (+1.8) REALLY? I did so well. This sucks.
Stopping JC. Trying a nutritionist.
1/14: 164.8 (-2.6) That is nice. Yipee!
1/21: 167.4 (+2.6) Good Lord! What is going on.
2/19: 167.0 (-0.4) Nearly a month and no gain. Good. Normalize eating, off low calories.
Injured back, on prednisone again! UGH! No hard workouts.
3/1: 168.6 (+1.6). SUCKY! I hate prednisone.
3/16: 166.6 (-2.0). OK.
4/8:163.2 (-3.4). That is 3 weeks, I'll take it.
4/28: 162.0 (-1.2). Three weeks again.
5/5: 160.6 (-1.4). Gotta keep this up.