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[Tough first day]

So, I have been on jc for a long time now and I reached and even surpassed my goal weight some time ago. However, I have noticed recently that I am an unconscious Sabotagee (made-up phrase). Let me explain what I mean and the reasons I found for my personal sabotage after doing some reflection. Well, reason #1: there had been times during my journey wherein I didn't lose a single pound in weeks; this has been quite disappointing and I thought to myself what is the point of eating right if the pounds don’t fall off ? Reason #2: Honestly it is just too hard to motivate myself every single day, week, month, year, etc to eat right even though I plan my meals every week. Reason #3: people have noticed my overall weight loss and some have told me how I inspired them to lose weight to. This leads me to my reason #4: I unconsciously developed an ego without noticing it and let all the positive comments go into my head. Therefore, I began to feel that I am a "Master" of losing weight, i.e. I gave tips to people like a pro because thanks to jc I had the knowledge on how to eat healthy foods and do exercise to shed off weight.

All these not-so-good-reasons and the fact that I became the skinniest I had ever been in my lifetime resulted in me "taking a break" from low calorie foods for some time. I felt that I deserved it and wanted to swap out my daily exercise time for something more fun and less sweaty. Also I got very tired of eating frozen/pre-packaged meals and trying to volumize them with 'free veggies' like jc teaches. As you could guess already, I did gain weight and returned some pounds to by body sadly—16 of them to be exact . I am definitely not proud of my actions. I have learned and still learning new things about myself, behavior and the impact of other people's positive compliments (although I am not implying they should stop coming ). Therefore, I am writing this post as first a confession because I believe by not keeping this shameful act of mine to myself, I will not empower this guilt to make me feel worse and continue eating bad but rather to get up faster to return to the right path . I now fully realize that I am not invincible and just because I know how to lose weight doesn’t excuse me unconsciously gaining them back.

Out of curiosity, have you had an unconscious sabotage experience based on similar reasons I gave above or something else? How did you stop this unpleasant cycle from re-occurring?

[Linwalker]

So, I have been on jc for a long time now and I reached and even surpassed my goal weight some time ago. However, I have noticed recently that I am an unconscious Sabotagee (made-up phrase). Let me explain what I mean and the reasons I found for my personal sabotage after doing some reflection. Well, reason #1: there had been times during my journey wherein I didn't lose a single pound in weeks; this has been quite disappointing and I thought to myself what is the point of eating right if the pounds don’t fall off ? Reason #2: Honestly it is just too hard to motivate myself every single day, week, month, year, etc to eat right even though I plan my meals every week. Reason #3: people have noticed my overall weight loss and some have told me how I inspired them to lose weight to. This leads me to my reason #4: I unconsciously developed an ego without noticing it and let all the positive comments go into my head. Therefore, I began to feel that I am a "Master" of losing weight, i.e. I gave tips to people like a pro because thanks to jc I had the knowledge on how to eat healthy foods and do exercise to shed off weight.

All these not-so-good-reasons and the fact that I became the skinniest I had ever been in my lifetime resulted in me "taking a break" from low calorie foods for some time. I felt that I deserved it and wanted to swap out my daily exercise time for something more fun and less sweaty. Also I got very tired of eating frozen/pre-packaged meals and trying to volumize them with 'free veggies' like jc teaches. As you could guess already, I did gain weight and returned some pounds to by body sadly—16 of them to be exact . I am definitely not proud of my actions. I have learned and still learning new things about myself, behavior and the impact of other people's positive compliments (although I am not implying they should stop coming ). Therefore, I am writing this post as first a confession because I believe by not keeping this shameful act of mine to myself, I will not empower this guilt to make me feel worse and continue eating bad but rather to get up faster to return to the right path . I now fully realize that I am not invincible and just because I know how to lose weight doesn’t excuse me unconsciously gaining them back.

Out of curiosity, have you had an unconscious sabotage experience based on similar reasons I gave above or something else? How did you stop this unpleasant cycle from re-occurring?

I think we ALL have done this. I'm going into month #5 and I still can't completely say I am doing this for life, I think that's the thing.. many of us have it mentally implanted that we can FINISH this journey and go back to eating the way we did before because "We got this" (grin) For me I need to get to a place of acceptance that this is a lifestyle change .. LIFE being the key word.

Thanks for sharing, it's good to see reminders and I think when we talk about them they don't seem so bad. We are human after all.

[Tough first day]

Thanks Linwalker, you are definitely right about the human part. Not everyday is going to be a perfect day and facing reality means there'd be a few days when i'll eat what i am not supposed to. At such moments, i should get back up and continue to do the right thing by not giving up at all.

[efljhlwuift]

"I believe by not keeping this shameful act of mine to myself, I will not empower this guilt to make me feel worse and continue eating bad but rather to get up faster to return to the right path . I now fully realize that I am not invincible and just because I know how to lose weight doesn’t excuse me unconsciously gaining them back."

This qoute was so well written and said exactly what I have been wanting to say to myself. I actually cried and read and reread it. I hope you dont mind but I plan on posting it on my fridge. I thank a bell just went off in my head! Thank you so so much!

[Tough first day]

"I believe by not keeping this shameful act of mine to myself, I will not empower this guilt to make me feel worse and continue eating bad but rather to get up faster to return to the right path . I now fully realize that I am not invincible and just because I know how to lose weight doesn’t excuse me unconsciously gaining them back."

This qoute was so well written and said exactly what I have been wanting to say to myself. I actually cried and read and reread it. I hope you dont mind but I plan on posting it on my fridge. I thank a bell just went off in my head! Thank you so so much!

efljhlwuift, I am happy that this posting was helpful to you . And guess what...since it's been a while since i wrote it, re-reading it again was exactly what i needed to hear today. I too have something to vent and there's more details on your "venting discussion".