Today is a rough day for me. I have been struggling for the last 4-5 weeks with ringing in my inner ear and it is causing me to be edgy and irritable with the ones that I love. Since starting this journey, I have seen an increase in my overall happiness, but there are times when I am not happy and I am finally understanding that it is okay.
I was a part of a Jenny motivational group on Facebook up until three days ago, when I left the group. Someone had posted that they had a large amount of weight to lose and that this was not the first or even second time that they had started Jenny, but the large amount of weight to lose discouraged them because they did not think it was achievable. When I saw that I had to share my story with her. I told her that my goal would require me to lose 148 pounds, and rather than focusing on the end game, I created several smaller goals (with the help of these forums and @missbumble's challenges) and now I am 31.6 pounds away from my goal. Then, someone else posted a response that hit me hard, they said that all of the postings of people losing large amounts of weight can be discouraging to others that are struggling. I replied, that by sharing my story I am aiming to encourage others, and would hate to think that by posting my successes was hurting or hindering anyone on this journey. At that point, I decided to leave the group. It hit me hard to think that by sharing my success and happiness with my results, that I was harming others on this journey. I realized today, that it is okay, there are going to be people that are affected negatively by my story (or other success stories) but then there are going to be people that are happy for me, and that are motivated by my story. It is not all peaches and rainbows all of the time, and that is okay.
The point of this post, is that this journey is a hard one, and the success stories often only spot light the happy times, but that is unrealistic. We are all human and we are going to go through rough times, and it is okay. You're not going to be able to please everyone all of the time, and that is okay. Not everyone, is going to like you or your story, but its okay.
Life is hard, this journey is hard and it is okay. While today is a rough day for me, and I am irritable and frustrated, I am human and I know that it is okay.
My name is Tricia Hensley. I started with Jenny Craig on June 27th at 278.4 pounds and I am currently sitting at 161.6 having lost 116.8 pounds. I am healthier and happier since starting this journey but I am human, there will be good days and there will be bad days, but it is OK.
Life is not always sunshine and rainbows and it is okay.