Who am I? I mean I KNOW my name, where I live, the career I built, and the family I love, but when I look in the mirror, I don't recognize myself. I'm crossing a bridge I couldn't wait to get to, and now am not sure HOW I got here. Where did the time go? When did I quit adding tampons to my shopping list? When did midnight become late, and the thought of "burnin' it down" means a bubble bath with wine, and my sweet husband rubbing my feet?
I don't want to let time take over, and give in to gravity (which begins with the same four letters as grave). All these hormonal emotions standing upright on sensible wedges instead of hot stilletos, brought me to this virtual space for my physical and cyber journey to find my waist line, and confidence again. I placed my first two week order today, but it won't arrive until next Friday. That's okay because I need ready myself with affirmations, prayers, and raindances. although I live in Texas, and post Hurricane Harvey, the former is exclusively metaphorical. I welcome your input and motivation strategies along the way.
My Jenny Journey started while I was graduation dress shopping with my daughter in May of 2017 at Dress Barn. While we were waiting for our daughter to try on a half dozen dresses I noticed one of those enter and win things and decided, "Why not?" I had just signed up for a chance to win a Jenny Craig membership. We bought our daughter's dress and left the store without another thought. Two months later, I received a voicemail stating that I had won. When I called back, I found out that I had won a free 3 month membership with $100 in food. I was super excited. When I went in for my consultation, I found out that the winner of the main prize of a one year membership, did not claim it and that they wanted to give it to me. I was super excited, I cried and gratefully accepted. Growing up, I have always been overweight, food was my outlet, food did not judge me, call me names, and hurt me. Food comforted me when I was sad, or angry. In many ways food has always been my best friend.
On December 24th, 2016 at 9:30 pm I decided that I was going to quit smoking because I wanted to be a happier, healthier me. Now, winning this membership at Jenny I felt like I was given an opportunity to further take back my life. You see, I had given up smoking, but my unhealthy eating was going to kill me. They even went a step further and offered my husband the three month membership that I had won so that we could start this journey together.
My starting weight was: 278.4 pounds
The goal that I have given myself is: 130 pounds
That will require me to lose: 148 pounds. (Over half of me!)
I weigh in for my 10th week tomorrow but as of last Thursday I was sitting at: 243 pounds which equals a 35.4 pound loss. And as of 8/24/2017 I have been smoke free for 8 months!
My main goal is to lose half of me and to be selected to be a part of the People Magazine 'Half of Me' edition. I want to reach my goal weight and give myself a head to toe makeover.
I understand that to many my goals might seem far fetched, and unrealistic, but to me it is the opposite. I am taking back my life and I will meet my goals. My intention for this blog is not to rub in my goals or my successes, I want to share my experience, to motivate others. I am happy and excited everyday at the thought of the different possibilities that now seem available to me when they were not before. It is okay to set high goals and push yourself, it is also okay if you fall a little short. The point is that you are trying and that you are believing in yourself. Each individual journey is going to be different, but I believe that if we are supporting each other and lifting each other up, we are going to see more and more success stories.
As my 10th week closes out, I want you to know that I wholeheartedly believe that Jenny Craig and my consultant have saved my life and I cannot wait to show them (and myself) that it will not be taken for granted.
~Life is a beautiful thing, and I will no longer be wasting it~
I thought I would remind myself what 5 ounces of wine looks like. I find myself short of calories .. and on the low range weight wise - so decided to have some wine tonight. OK so I have wine alot when I go out.. sometimes at home. And it's impt when I am out to know how many calories I am having.
So here's 5 ounces of Matua Sauvignon Blanc. So many foods are easy to overdo and rack up the calories.
I know I shouldn't be annoyed by this, but my boyfriend is also trying to lose weight, and all he did was cut out beer and go to the gym more often, and he has dropped 20 POUNDS in 3 weeks. I have only lost 6 pounds in 2 weeks. Sometimes, I weigh myself in the morning, and I am below 170, and then 6 hours later, while sticking to the plan, I gain 4 pounds. I know that water weight causes fluctuations, but it still sucks that men can lose twice as much weight with less effort than women! I keep reminding myself that I did not gain weight overnight, so I shouldn't expect to lose it overnight. I am also struggling with how to make vegetables more palatable. I really get sick of eating salad, so I am glad Jenny introduced the broccoli with cheese sauce and green beans with olive oil and garlic! I have ulcerative colitis, so eating raw vegetables can be problematic. I need to eat more cooked vegetables, not salad. So, I am exploring ways to substitute cooked vegetables that are easier for me to digest, that I actually LIKE. Exploring vegetarian soup recipes from my collection of cookbooks and the internet.
I am now, officially, an Empty Nester! My daughter graduated from high school and moved in with her father, because he has an apartment within walking distance of the University of New Mexico Campus where she will be attending classes, starting tomorrow. My son now has an apartment with friends and rarely visits me. They no longer require my culinary services, just financial support. My doctor put me on diabetes medications (Invokana and Metformin) awhile ago. I lost 20 pounds, but need to lose another 40 through "lifestyle changes," so I can get off those insidious medications and preserve my kidneys. So, I am back on Jenny Craig. First week went well, but I had to go "off menu" today for social obligation. Local pizza joint, but I did well by choosing salad over slices. Must admit that I feel a little "hungry" and deprived, but I am reminding myself that I need to feed my body healthy food, not junk. Took my son's dog for a 2-mile walk on Saturday and am pleased to report that I wore her out (instead of the other way around--usually she "walks" me!)
I am excited. I rejoined Jenny today. I feel more motivation this time around. I made a fancy signature and everything! I want to do the labor day challenge even though I am late to join it I think. That is ok. I still want to lose weight for Labor Day and for lots of other future days. I want this time to really stick with the program. My problem is I give up easily. I get very discouraged and I don't know how to talk myself out of how I am feeling. I can be very negative and discouraging for myself. Today my consultant talked with me about the child within that is having a temper tantrum when I want to overeat or eat something I shouldn't be having. I need to learn how to talk to myself. I guess this is my inner child? I know I get very anxious and the only way it seems sometimes to calm myself is to eat a lot of food. I want to learn healthier ways of being.
I think I'm going to use this blog as a public journal. Hopefully no one will leave a hateful comment. But I feel safe in this community. I have read what other people have written. A long time ago I wrote something here and people were nice and helpful to me.
Today I visited jenny Craig center to say hi and hit Marshalls. Looking for a white t-shirt. Did not find it, but found some nice Size 6 Calvin Klien shorts and beautiful sexy shirts for work and fun. As I was shopping I was thinking.. So you are going to spend this money on clothes... and what stay this weight? The answer was yea I am!! Yes we can So maintenance is tough - I love food! But Jenny Craig is here for me - and I believe I will do this ... one day at a time .. just keep on keeping on.
So I picked up some food at the center and told them I was going to stay connected every single week for the next year. Really for a lot longer. But you know, this works for me. Jenny Craig works. Maintenance is a work in progress. Figuring out the right level of exercise and food to sustain me.
So if you haven't figured out by know I am a huge Jenny Craig fan!! It's hard - we may not always want to eat smaller portions or something - whereas other times we may think its the best thing ever (Chocolate Lava Cake, Florentine Breakfast Pizzas and my new favorite the Chocolate cheese cake...) On maintenance I get meals on my own (soon as my stove gets fixed!!! Tuesday yay!) and have Jenny as needed/desired. So it really is a great program especially for me and my travel schedule.
Anyway I am meandering.. but it just hit me as I was shopping. It's ok to buy size 6 or so outfits... I will be this size next year. So forurm friends - Lets do this together. All be here one year from now! Who's with me???
Journey update: I am almost 5 months into Maintenance and just want to report in that maintenance has good overall - I've had a few too many BBQ outings and a couple of vacations this summer that has me needing more accountability lately - so decided I need to keep posting my Journey! Weight Maintenance at my age is more work than I wish it was - but worth every ounce of effort!! I feel great and have WAY more energy than I did a year ago! Yeah! This photo was taken over the 4th of July.
So I am off to happy hour in my new dress. Jenny Craig rocks!!!Never ever give up - this is your time! If you are new or struggling or thinking about straying. Don't.... This is how we do it. It works!!! I have come to love the food. love the people, love the plan. So today went out with my fitness coach, her mom and another friend- needless to say they are breathtakingly beautiful women. After lunch (salmon power bowl, cooked dry with JC dressing - about 400 calories). We went to the Vegan bakery where I ate zilcho. (and was not tempted... Afterwards - I bought this new dress. I barely own a dress. I do not wear them. Well I am off to happy hour in my new dress. Man it is sooo refreshing to be able to wear clothes like these. Or even shopping in a regular size store.
So some of you know I have been working out at my fitness class I take (Orange Theory) but tonight I was inspired by SFMOM who was dancing at home. So I searched for dance videos... and found one that is a little Silly - but got me up off my chair and sweating - and not heading right to dessert and bed.
So I think I will see if I can keep this up for 7 days. So this is the 7 days of you tube videos... None of them are my videos... and I have a bunch that I love that really work you out that i have posted on the JC Forum. My intention here are gentle videos - that stress having fun - rather than a million squats... as I do those in my class. OK I could do more... but never mind.
CIZE Dance Video _ Shawn T
Day 1:: https://youtu.be/tj9d6aBOzDo
6/25 - It was a bit silly - but by the end of 30 minutes I was sweating. And if you are ever depressed or have any issues - working out always helps. You may not want to do it - but you never ever finish and say jeez I wish i didn't do that.
6/29 - Day 2 - Did the next CIZE Dance video it was fun. Not much of a workout for me - but a good way to breakup the day and step away form my desk and pc work.
21 Day Fix
Well lets dance turned into lets see what else Beachbody has - and so now I have just completed day 3 of 21 Day Fix. An outstanding workout program. Really making me work, but with modification I can do. Its available to buy DVDs or just use use the app or website - beachbodyondemand.(for a monthly fee).
6/30 Day 4 - Pilates (Think planks and leg lifts) it was what they call an active rest day - but leg exercises are hard. Imagine if I did them al these years (I did not).
So life is soooo good. I just spent Sun eve thru This morning on a work trip in Toronto. FANTASTIC. I loved running and sightseeing... Fantastic city. Glad to be home.. and looking forward to being home and staying more on track with jenny. I did ok while away - but kind of like being back.
Anyway great trip...
My body hated me so much when I started JC. Thought I'd use my blog debut to record all the weight related issues I faced/am facing:
A chronic cough due to GERD that I'd had for 16 mos.
Plantar fasciitis in both feet
Lower back pain
Inability to do things I used to easily, like cross my legs, go for long walks, skate and hike up hills with the ease of a mountain goat.
I just started JC 3 weeks ago, but I've lost 10 lbs, my chronic cough has gone away and my feet and lower back are already feeling a little better. I still have 73 lbs to lose and it gets overwhelming thinking of just how long it's going to take to get back to a healthy weight so I can't let myself dwell on it. I can only focus on sticking with the diet for today, so that's what I do.
Just decided to count my Days (ok google did that for me)... and we are here at Day 333. 2 days from my birthday. What a fantastic present. I can tuck in a shirt. Priceless!!!! I am so very happy I went to Jenny. I am definitely my thinnest ever. I buy size small. Whaaat? Bought a jean jacket to where on my date (yes date) next week. Oh wait the point is I bought it at Banana Republic (Which for the record I could not fit into their clothes 333 days ago) and it's a size small. It might be on the smaller side.. but my workouts at OrangeTheory seem to make you smaller - so I think it's fine.
Anyway I am so thrilled with Day 333. I played golf (shot a 98 which was ok considering I have not been focusing on golf lately), had lunch with my golf partner - big salad - no cheese or croutons, Added Ahi Tuna, and brought the new JC Creamy Herb Dressing (45 cals) and added some healthy anchovies and avocado.
Then had my nails done (for the aforementioned date - red toes, French nails)
Now home had my snack off to shower and try on work outfits and date outfits. Have to see what fits for work outfits. I do not get tired of outfits. I am still shocked very day with how I look. You think I would be getting used to it.. nope!
OK Well.. just wanted to share Day 333.....
We are at Jennie Craig this morning getting weighed in. My daughter has lost 47 and I'm down 37.Woot woot for us. We are going on vacation this Sunday to Hawaii and plan on taking loads of snacks. Wish us luck
Should I be used to this? Went away this weekend to my cousins graduation and made a mad dash to Chicos to find a white t-shirt to put with Black pants.. But alas I bought a ton of stuff. First off - I remember when I could not fit into Chicos. Did you know they have a size 00? say What? (I had 00 jeans on...) Anyway I purchased a bunch of clothes in size 0. Wow... So if you have not shopped Chico's size 0 is not a true size 0... it's more like a Size 6 or on the smaller side of a size 8.
Anyway - I feel like one day i was thrilled to get into the 190s... and then 180s... and now here I am in the 140s at goal. Some of the new shape has to be due to my new workout (a class where I do 30 minutes High Intensity cardio and 30 means weights or body weigh stuff). So through jenny craig and adding some healthy exercise - I arrived here at goal. I never imagined goal would be a size 6. My sister and I went dress shopping for another cousin's upcoming wedding... And it was clear I needed a size 6 dress. woo hoo.. so thrilling, I know I must sound insane. Like - some of you - just skip the blog because enough already, Sue we get it your thin. but for the newbies.. I swear this program works. It is 85% Food and 15% exercise. The biggest issue I face is food.. and Jenny has helped me with that!! As I am in maintenance - yup this is where a lot of work begins.
I am taking it slowly. I do meals on my own and Jenny foods so it's a mix. I feel so satisfied with the JC food that I tend to stick to it.. I am branching out and will do more and more MOMOs with the help of the forum and the help of my JC counselor...
Anyway, I read alot of people complaining about the slow loss ( I bet I was one of them back in the day).. And the forum gang were here to tell me - it's ok.. You Got This!! And slow and steady wins the race. I definitely won the race!And there's room for all of you in the Winner's Cirlce! Am I glad the weight loss was slow? I think the answer is yes. It's helping me stick with it... eat the right amount of foods and learn portion sizes. So i am glad it is off. I am sooo glad I joined jenny. Every day I put on a workout outfit and I am astounded I get to look like this! YAY JENNY!!! Thank you forum friends - You all are wonderful..
My cousin's graduation was very nice! He was glad my sister and I flew there (DC) to attend. I'm very glad to be back home..
Anyway thought I would share my new Chicos outfit.. I also bought the pants in black. Love them
Let me say first of all that I have been a strong proponent of Jenny Craig. I get creative with the meals, I love adding in fresh veggies, and I've lost a lot of weight and felt great.
But lately I am getting really annoyed with Jenny Craig, as a corporation.
First, they cancelled the app with no warning, promised they would roll out something new, solicited feedback (which I took the time to provide) and then decided that they weren't going to replace the app in the end. Well, can we have back the old app at least? No. Why?????
Second, I figured even though I didn't have the app, I could at least plan out my meals online to make sure that they were balanced and then print off my schedule for the week and check things off that way instead of via the app. So I went back to the website to do that and I was having difficulty finding the menu-planner feature. Upon chatting with a representative online, I found out that it will be discontinued. The reason? They don't think it is necessary. Again, what is the point of CANCELLING features that you had as selling points when people joined the program? Total bait-and-switch.
Then I talked to my consultant about it this week and she told me that the reason they are doing all of this is that they aren't allowing people to make their own menu plans anymore. They've always discouraged it, but now they won't allow you to sign up at all unless you agree to sticked to the menu plans as they are written.
It's annoying because I REALLY don't like the menu plans. I've tried following individual weeks, I've tried picking individual days. I just can't. I end up with foods that I hate, that then sit in my freezer while I make excuses for reasons to stop for fast food. Its bad.
It would be so easy for them to make a program that required participatnts to only order food that fits within a particular set of weekly guidelines. If they can't figure it out themselves (or don't want to take the time), then they can do a planned menu. If they can and want to, then they get to customize their menu and eat what they like. This isn't rocket science, it's just computer programming.
I love Jenny, but I can't recommend it to people anymore now that they don't offer customization. It's annoying to see a company take something that is simple and make it needlessly regulated.
Macaroni and Cheese with Green Beans, plus tomatoes, homemade ranch and coleslaw.
Homemade ranch recipe: 1 tsp dry onion flakes, 1/4 tsp onion powder, 1/4 tsp garlic powder, 1/8 tsp or less black pepper, 1/8 tsp salt, mix into 2 oz greek yogurt, add more yogurt if needed.