I rejoined today. I've been struggling for a while and needed to get some control over my food choices. I think I have finally worked the 1st step of OA. I am truly powerless over food, I am scared but hopeful for the future. I am hoping I can inspire you as you can inspire me!
So here I am. Sitting at the pool. Day 3 of a 7 day trip. For the most part, I feel I'm doing ok with MOMO. We did get vegetables and salad, a roaster chicken and a steak. I'm trying not to over-think my food choices his week. However, I am playing "this-not-that" when it comes to making choices. No doubt, the scale will go up. I just want to keep it to a minimum.
I love how I've grown in my healthy eating thinking. I used to stress about it so much, I would give up and go overboard. Not this time. I actually feel remarkably calm with my food choices.
It's all about a permanent lifestyle, isn't it? So, I went to an hour water aerobics class and I am planning to go to this and a spin class this week too. I guess I'll see how this all pans out when I return.
I've been thinking about this since the day I paid for my trip - my vacation with the girls to Florida. I'm unable to take JC food, so I'll have to wing it. But - we will be stocking the fridge with healthy food. I'm just at a loss as to what it'll be.... that goes with liquor.
My JC consultant and I talked about a plan, but also knowing that I'll at the very least maintain my weight, if not go up a few pounds. I'll talk with her on Thursday before I leave, so I'll at least be able to refocus prior to launch.
While I'm a wine drinker, I'm going to drink Michelob Ultra. After doing some research on the different beers, this is the best tasting for the least amount of carbs and better low calories. [ http://www.shape.com/healthy-eating/healthy-drinks/15-bikini-friendly-beers ]
We'll get salad and I'll definitely get carrots and cucumbers to munch on. There's a yogurt dip I absolutely love - I hope it's in Florida! It's 30 calories for 2 tablespoons - Cedar's Cucumber Garlic Dill Tzatziki. I got it at Sam's Club - hopefully, it's at Wal-Mart where we're shopping!
I'll also get some eggs to quickly heat in the micro with some veges
Other than that, I have no clue what I'm going to do to stay close to plan. Any ideas??
The resort has alot of fitness activities. I'm going to try to hit some - yoga, spin class. But I don't want to go overboard, just work off some of the extra calories.
Uggghhh. This will be my first test since I rejoined. As we're starting into the holiday season soon, it'll be a good test. I'm looking forward to my return trip blog to compare what I say I will do with what I actually did.
This morning, I made it below 200. I'll take it! Two days after my 56th birthday. So, I celebrated... with a nice hike up Poke-O-Moonshine Mountain in the Adirondacks. I took my son and my two cavalier king charles spaniels. The summit is 1450 feet. Lots of inclines! I'm going to feel this tomorrow.
Note:***I will keep this blog entry for one week and add to it. If I binge - I will post it here no matter what!! So let's get through this week - with my plan in tact.... my heart in tact...
Saturday 9/30/17 9AM
Hi Guys - Today i go for my weigh in - I will definitely be up. Last week went pretty well - but Thursday was a night of binging. There's no way that is allowed for on my plan or way of life. For me it is a terrible sign that I may spin out of control and gain the weight back. So clearly it makes me upset!!! These past few weeks work has been incredibly stressful.
All sorts of ideas about bringing all Jenny food with me (Just a mini fridge...and no fridge at office) but the issue is more when I decided to binge... just go do it. Does not matter if I have had a good meal or smaller Jenny meal - none of that matters, Anyway - just wanted to reach out and say this week will be different. I will get back on track and avoid the airport binge. (and other places too).
OK off to the Gym - have not been to the regular gym in a while - but going to get on a bike since my rib hurts form racquet ball.... so going to skip OrangeTheory today... (done: 60 minutes workout - with 30+ minutes at 84% maximum heart rate = 570 calories burned)
Then later go to Jenny Craig...and say hello, talk to JC Consultant, and face the music. For me going every week is key, This will turn around - but if I don't go weigh in - somewhere I will just keep doing this and gain it all back. Not an option.
Tonight - optional Break the fast party for Yom Kippur at family friends house.. i want to go but I wonder if it's the food that beckons me. What if I just go say hi..and then go home? That's rude.. oh the dilemmas. Maybe just stay home. I know she will have a ton of food and I feel like I need to buckle down... hmmm (edit:(I did not go - wise choice)
Sunday 10/1 4:41PM
Today I played golf - and then had lunch at home and then hit Youfit for 30minutes on stepmill and 30 on the bike with my Heart rate monitor from OrangeTheory. Managed to burn about 600 calories. When I started JC and did the stepmill (revolving staircase machine - cruel) I could do 10-20 minutes max at level 6. Not with my OT app - and tracking the workout so I stay at 84% and above of my max heart rate for alot of the workout (2 minute intervals or so) I was doing level 12. Its so amazing to see the progress. And my progress did not come from using the stepmill every day - it came from 1) doing JC and 2) doing 1 hour of the Orange Theory class (30min treadmill or similar and 30 min mixture of rower and body weight or free wieght or TRX strap exercises) with a kick a$$ coach cheering you on and helping you with form. Anyway - 6 months later - I am able to really workout pretty hard at a gym.
Came home and had a whey protein shake that was divine - but also had anytime bar (also amazing). Alot of food at once but that is sort of how I roll. Key is its all within my limits on My Fitness Pal - and I am not binging on potato chips, etc.
I gave @SFMomadvice - no one is ever unhappy on the treadmill... and got myself to the gym today - It was very unplanned and extra. lately I have been in a funk. Works been really hard. The guy I was hoping to date - dumped me...or well really it wasn't working - long distance - and anyway the easy job I had the last twp years has turned a lot harder with my new client and area of focus... So alas - Sue has been stressed out - and not coping well. Well this weekend - I turned it around - and rocked it!! Going to continue this trend into the week - and pursue the 7 clean days of excellence here. One of the tricks with my feelings - that I so don't remember or do - is this too shall pass. Every feeling I have is - just that not a fact. A feeling. It will pass....life changes - there's awesome times and ok times and crappy times. Food is so not the answer. Everything is better being thin and having food in it's place.. Not perfect - but if I were bigger and if I were eating out of control for me it was all harder. So Sue - hang in there. You Got This!
Ok Hair time - blow dry and iron.. it's an ordeal.
For you guys on maintenance the shake is called Unikey Vanilla Whey protein powder (Great product) with 2 tbs PB2 Fit, some ice, a little JC vanilla shake, 10 ounces of water and 1 stevia..and half a banana chopped when it's ripe - and frozen.. total calories - 110+45 ish + 60 + 15 = about 230.
For you guys doing JC and losing... the cookie Dough anytime bar in the freezer is soo good.
yahoo..., food was good this weekend!!! Time to continue this!
weight in home scale 140 yay
Airport food:1 hard boiled egg and 2 cups of coffee with steamed milk
time to kick a$$!
Yes, it's my birthday. I'm 56 years old today. As usual, I'm spending my birthday alone, but it's no big deal. Birthdays at this age aren't that important to me. I'll put a candle on my JC cupcake, blow it out and congratulate myself for staying on Jenny Craig in spite of it being my birthday. The only thing non-plan that I did today was have a skinny salted caramel macchiato and boy oh boy was it good! So.... one milk, right? And 30 extra minutes on the bike.
I will celebrate that I am 1 pound away from ONEDERLAND. My husband even commented that I'm losing my butt (so long as my boobs don't decrease too much, he's happy). I'm noticing that my muffin top is starting to go away. I look forward to the day when there is no muffin top...and I can cross my legs with both cheeks on the chair at the same time. Perhaps my birthday wish should be just that - no muffin top and crossing my legs.
By this time next year, I should down 75 lbs total and on maintenance. That's not a wish, that's a promise to myself and my body.
It's one month. My scale continues to move downward. But I really try not to focus on the scale this time around. I'm trying to focus on what's getting me through and helping me to move forward in my journey to be fit n fabulous.
....I like how I wrote that down - that I don't focus on the scale. WHO AM I KIDDING? I'M ON A WEIGHT LOSS PROGRAM, OF COURSE I CHECK THE SCALE. So many people probably do that: write down BS to make it seem like they're really being a good girl. Online/social media allows us to do that without accountability. Actually, I look at the scale every morning and every night. It's what makes me accountable and shows me what foods make me go up or down the scale. So far, all's well and good and the scale moves down every week. I learned how to use the scale to monitor my food when I was on a pre-JC plan [Back in the day - on LA WL, if anyone remembers that program - when we would weigh in twice a week to check what foods moved the scale.]
I also try focus as much as I can on understanding what works and doesn't this time around so I don't return to square 1 again. I take all that I've learned in the past and apply the good things to what I'm doing now. I've never had this focus before. So many things seemed to be in the way, I said. It's true - if we want to make it true. We all can have something in the way. I used excuses like kids, work, college, moving, husband's work stressors, my health. I was so in control of the other items in my life. I had an innate ability to juggle many things at once. I was known for it - employers sought me out because of my ability to handle the stress. But I could never get in control of weight. It was my crutch and my comfort to escape by eating and watching tv. It was also my comfort to eat at good restaurants or order take-out during a late work night. After all, I deserved it. And then I'd hate myself for not being able to stay in control. Sound familiar? I bet it is for most of us.
Funny, how that isn't what's going on for me today. I actually want to eat healthy. I enjoy discovering new ways to make veges to go with my JC food. This time, it's actually fun! I wish you could understand that, for me, enjoying eating and creating dishes is a very very big deal. Being raised in a German household on "meat and potatoes," I had a love/hate relationship with vegetables and "healthy" food. Today, I really don't know what clicked, but I don't have a hate relationship with food. I actually am enjoying it!
If this is you, what's getting you through it?
I'm writing this here now. My future goals. I don't want to overwhelm myself with all I want to accomplish at once. So, I'm putting this in writing to remind myself what I would love to accomplish as I get healthier. Later in my journey, I want to view this and see how far I've come.
This year's goal was to get my physical health in order. I'm on my way. I've been working with doctors to make sure my health is in check. They're actually listening to me! Now I have no excuses as to why I can't lose weight - not even menopause. Enter Jenny Craig. So here's the rest on my wish list:
getting to 10%
documenting my journey
walking the neighborhood with my dogs (they're not good walkers right now)
making exercise part of breathing - doing it every day
completing the Adirondack Fire Tower Challenge (1 down, 28 to go!)
Hiking the beginner to mid-level mountains of the 46 High Peaks in the Adirondacks (many are expert level hikes)
learning to enjoy food
reaching 75 lb weight loss goal before Summer 2018
Previously, I preferred to look at the world through rose-colored glasses. "All will be ok and I will be fine." Well, since we're all here together, you can see where that got me.
I've been on a journey. To find myself and move forward...with myself...regardless of what is in my way. It's been a journey that started about 5 years ago. I had many life situations that happened around me, affecting me, but not about me. I tried to help, nuture, parent, be a good daughter, be a good friend, excel in my job, help finance people's problems. I did this while trying to complete my college degree. It was the first big thing in my life that I've accomplished. I am the only person in my immediate family to complete college. Then all went downhill and I finally hit a wall. Everything I thought was good was not. Everything I thought I could fix, could not be fixed. I made a decision then to stop looking at the world through rose-colored glasses.
So now, I'm calling myself a newbie realist. This comes to me now because I FINALLY stopped looking at my weight loss through those rose-colored glasses. I stopped thinking that eating more than one item off plan was going to be ok. It's not going to be ok if I want to get to goal. I also stopped thinking that if I don't do some sort of exercise, I'll still lose weight when I get closer to goal. Am I near goal now - HECK NO! But I now realize if I don't start something now, I won't get into a groove, making it an every-day occurrence later in my journey. I also made a commitment to get to the real goal - not a goal that I feel is ok because I can't envision me weighing less. So... not 30 pounds less - the real goal is 75 pounds less and I'M GOING TO GET THERE.
I also realize that I'm not going to lose 75 pounds overnight. I'm over 55 and it's most likely going to go slow. Bummer. But it's real. I've realized that I can't do this alone, but I really don't have have much home support. Bummer again. But it's real. Life is real. I will have to deal with this the rest of my life. It's not a "get thin quick" program for me. It's a "make it stick" program. My consultant is amazing. I lean on her when I have to. She's given me so much help and information. I also lean on reading the blogs and forums.
This was never something I did - documenting my feelings or writing down what I ate. I'm actually shocked I'm doing it! But I am doing it. Hands up for the Realist!
So... here I am. I'm not new to this. In fact, I probably could become a weight loss consultant myself! This is my third time being back at Jenny Craig. If anything, I'm consistent at returning. But why am I here ... again?
Well, if you're like me, you've tried everything and anything on the planet to lose weight and keep it off. You would get so far- seem "ok" with your success; stop the program and then gain it all back.... and sometimes gain more weight than when you last started. You've been so desperate at times, you were willing to sacrifice everything just to lose the weight you've always wanted.
Perhaps, like me, you've never been thin. You can't imagine ever being thin .... but you want to be there....thin, healthy, happy, active. Perhaps, like me, you've resigned yourself to always being a "big gal/guy." Perhaps, like me, you've become mad, annoyed, angry (or hangry) saying to yourself - "WHY AM I TRYING TO CONFORM TO WHAT OTHER PEOPLE WANT? I think I'm healthy - so what if I'm overweight? I'm trying to love myself for who I am. I think I look sexy. My clothes look just fine on me." You become resentful of the weight loss people trying to give you rules and making you follow a program. You hate yourself because you've gotten to this point. You stop following the program. You lie to your consultant and say it's all good, then quit. You tell yourself you can do it on your own.
Ok. Who am I kidding? I know I'll never be happy until I reach my goal. It's unfinished business for me. It has been for more than 30 years. Today, I'm more than 60 pounds overweight. This IS a challenge. This IS hard, at times. I know can all do it, but not initially on my own. I need to lean on other like-minded people, like my consultant and JC threads to get through the initial phase. I need to recognize that, right now, I don't have the wherewithal to do it myself. Which is why I all got smart and came back to Jenny Craig for the third time. I know it works. I just need to get to the finish line.
Check back with me in a few weeks. I want to make sure I remember I wrote this after my first week of "Third Time's a Charm." I'm hopeful that I'll keep up this momentum.
OK So these past two weeks I have been staying at a hotel in Atlanta and eating out for most meals (though they have Publix and Whole Foods... so I did not have to) . Also Drinking wine (a couple of glasses) each night. Net net weigh in this morning - I will be up a pound or three. People say the eating comes form stress- I think it also is insecurity, So surrounded by really bright stars from my company on ,my new project doing something I am not the worlds leading expert in (go figure). creating Decks on information I need to glean - and do not know.... and comparing my self to others.. recipe for uncomfortable feelings. Last night on the plane I ate a bunch - so just acting out like a kid. And that was after a very successful client meeting.
Anyway I talked to my Mom about it... and decided to write down my food. Limit the drinking (No drinking the next 2 weeks) etc. ON my way to JC in a few... so need to plan this out.
@Crayola64always gets me - and said cereal may be a trigger. I think I don't handle lactose well too. So going to put the brakes on that, Make my meals less exciting
Breakfasts - Concierge Lounge or Cafeteria at client.
2 hard boiled eggs (instead of scrambled - where I never know if I took too much and always want more)
Bowl of fresh fruit - how bout using the small lbowl.. cup size gives it boundaries
Snack: Water, water
Lunch JC Chicken Salad Kit and salsd (no onions or broccoli) and Skinny girl dressing - no croutons(Obviously) no chick peas, no Parmesan. Just straight veggies
Snack - Water, water rice cake with PB2, Anytime Bar or Apple, Anytime Bar
Dinner - Whole Foods, Salmon, Veggie, Couscous or brown rice - something not too high in calories (no salda - as I am overdoing the quantity and my body rebels)
Try not to do meal out if I am by myself and not needed for work event
Dessert - Smores Bar
Hey Guys - well just a quick post - as requested - new outfits... I don't have picture of the size 4 jeans and shirt where my stomach shows (a teensy bit). It feels great to be able to maintain here in Atlanta (Avoiding hopefully the worst of Irma).
Yesterday visited JC and met Ashley a terrific consultant in ATL - up .5 pounds - but nothing to worry about (I think I am down today according to the OTF scale 139). So not too worried - but watchful. Making better decisions and maybe skipping breakfast out when I know I have plans tonight for dinner.
Anyhoo- my family (Mom, Sister and her hubby) have all reported in safe and sounds as the winds kick up in Boca.
So meanwhile just got back form OrangeTheory I am sooo glad when it is finished - and so glad I did it. The picture below is with the trainer.... and my new workout pants.. and shirt courtesy of Marshalls. Stripes... that just was not what I used to wear at 207+. So grateful to JC for the 70 pounds or so loss and to all of you. It's so worth it... Keep going no matter what.
Picture is with the ORT coach Lauren. Great Class!
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I don't want to let time take over, and give in to gravity (which begins with the same four letters as grave). All these hormonal emotions standing upright on sensible wedges instead of hot stilletos, brought me to this virtual space for my physical and cyber journey to find my waist line, and confidence again. I placed my first two week order today, but it won't arrive until next Friday. That's okay because I need ready myself with affirmations, prayers, and raindances. although I live in Texas, and post Hurricane Harvey, the former is exclusively metaphorical. I welcome your input and motivation strategies along the way.
I thought I would remind myself what 5 ounces of wine looks like. I find myself short of calories .. and on the low range weight wise - so decided to have some wine tonight. OK so I have wine alot when I go out.. sometimes at home. And it's impt when I am out to know how many calories I am having.
So here's 5 ounces of Matua Sauvignon Blanc. So many foods are easy to overdo and rack up the calories.
I know I shouldn't be annoyed by this, but my boyfriend is also trying to lose weight, and all he did was cut out beer and go to the gym more often, and he has dropped 20 POUNDS in 3 weeks. I have only lost 6 pounds in 2 weeks. Sometimes, I weigh myself in the morning, and I am below 170, and then 6 hours later, while sticking to the plan, I gain 4 pounds. I know that water weight causes fluctuations, but it still sucks that men can lose twice as much weight with less effort than women! I keep reminding myself that I did not gain weight overnight, so I shouldn't expect to lose it overnight. I am also struggling with how to make vegetables more palatable. I really get sick of eating salad, so I am glad Jenny introduced the broccoli with cheese sauce and green beans with olive oil and garlic! I have ulcerative colitis, so eating raw vegetables can be problematic. I need to eat more cooked vegetables, not salad. So, I am exploring ways to substitute cooked vegetables that are easier for me to digest, that I actually LIKE. Exploring vegetarian soup recipes from my collection of cookbooks and the internet.
I am now, officially, an Empty Nester! My daughter graduated from high school and moved in with her father, because he has an apartment within walking distance of the University of New Mexico Campus where she will be attending classes, starting tomorrow. My son now has an apartment with friends and rarely visits me. They no longer require my culinary services, just financial support. My doctor put me on diabetes medications (Invokana and Metformin) awhile ago. I lost 20 pounds, but need to lose another 40 through "lifestyle changes," so I can get off those insidious medications and preserve my kidneys. So, I am back on Jenny Craig. First week went well, but I had to go "off menu" today for social obligation. Local pizza joint, but I did well by choosing salad over slices. Must admit that I feel a little "hungry" and deprived, but I am reminding myself that I need to feed my body healthy food, not junk. Took my son's dog for a 2-mile walk on Saturday and am pleased to report that I wore her out (instead of the other way around--usually she "walks" me!)
I am excited. I rejoined Jenny today. I feel more motivation this time around. I made a fancy signature and everything! I want to do the labor day challenge even though I am late to join it I think. That is ok. I still want to lose weight for Labor Day and for lots of other future days. I want this time to really stick with the program. My problem is I give up easily. I get very discouraged and I don't know how to talk myself out of how I am feeling. I can be very negative and discouraging for myself. Today my consultant talked with me about the child within that is having a temper tantrum when I want to overeat or eat something I shouldn't be having. I need to learn how to talk to myself. I guess this is my inner child? I know I get very anxious and the only way it seems sometimes to calm myself is to eat a lot of food. I want to learn healthier ways of being.
I think I'm going to use this blog as a public journal. Hopefully no one will leave a hateful comment. But I feel safe in this community. I have read what other people have written. A long time ago I wrote something here and people were nice and helpful to me.
Today I visited jenny Craig center to say hi and hit Marshalls. Looking for a white t-shirt. Did not find it, but found some nice Size 6 Calvin Klien shorts and beautiful sexy shirts for work and fun. As I was shopping I was thinking.. So you are going to spend this money on clothes... and what stay this weight? The answer was yea I am!! Yes we can So maintenance is tough - I love food! But Jenny Craig is here for me - and I believe I will do this ... one day at a time .. just keep on keeping on.
So I picked up some food at the center and told them I was going to stay connected every single week for the next year. Really for a lot longer. But you know, this works for me. Jenny Craig works. Maintenance is a work in progress. Figuring out the right level of exercise and food to sustain me.
So if you haven't figured out by know I am a huge Jenny Craig fan!! It's hard - we may not always want to eat smaller portions or something - whereas other times we may think its the best thing ever (Chocolate Lava Cake, Florentine Breakfast Pizzas and my new favorite the Chocolate cheese cake...) On maintenance I get meals on my own (soon as my stove gets fixed!!! Tuesday yay!) and have Jenny as needed/desired. So it really is a great program especially for me and my travel schedule.
Anyway I am meandering.. but it just hit me as I was shopping. It's ok to buy size 6 or so outfits... I will be this size next year. So forurm friends - Lets do this together. All be here one year from now! Who's with me???
Journey update: I am almost 5 months into Maintenance and just want to report in that maintenance has good overall - I've had a few too many BBQ outings and a couple of vacations this summer that has me needing more accountability lately - so decided I need to keep posting my Journey! Weight Maintenance at my age is more work than I wish it was - but worth every ounce of effort!! I feel great and have WAY more energy than I did a year ago! Yeah! This photo was taken over the 4th of July.
So I am off to happy hour in my new dress. Jenny Craig rocks!!!Never ever give up - this is your time! If you are new or struggling or thinking about straying. Don't.... This is how we do it. It works!!! I have come to love the food. love the people, love the plan. So today went out with my fitness coach, her mom and another friend- needless to say they are breathtakingly beautiful women. After lunch (salmon power bowl, cooked dry with JC dressing - about 400 calories). We went to the Vegan bakery where I ate zilcho. (and was not tempted... Afterwards - I bought this new dress. I barely own a dress. I do not wear them. Well I am off to happy hour in my new dress. Man it is sooo refreshing to be able to wear clothes like these. Or even shopping in a regular size store.