OK, I just finished my lunch -
Classic Cheeseburger - Pretty good!
Green beans with olive oil and garlic - oh dear, I'm so over these things now, lol!
With my current plan (Rapid Results), I'm supposed to have EITHER the Cheesy Broccoli OR the Green Beans + Olive Oil twice a week (JC foods) with lunch. However, I can't have the cheesy broccoli because of my lactose intolerance, so I've only been getting the green beans. I've now had them six times (2x a week for 3 weeks) and I'm officially OVER THEM! I want to make my own instead. Arrgggh! I'm going to talk about it with my consultant today and see if there's something else I can do on my own instead, just, something about the texture has been rubbing me the wrong way this week, it's like they are squeaky on my teeth and just weird! ... OK, I'm done ranting now, I've just been priding myself on not being a picky eater, but it's also hard not to be high-maintenance with the lactose stuff.
I did not sleep so well last night due to my pain issues, and it's making it difficult to focus and be motivated today. I'm full of the "I DON'T WANNA"'s! So, tonight, I am going to self-care. I'll get home, have my White Bean Chili with some added veggies and such, and my Lemon Cake. Then, I'm going to snuggle onto the couch in my personal study, wrap a blanket around myself, and hopefully spoon with my little dog Scout (if she's not too rambunctious tonight). We are going to watch a movie - I haven't decided on which one yet, I'm debating between Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings. I just need some personal "me" time, I'm a bit of an introvert and I've been around people a LOT for the past two weeks, so my batteries need a little recharging. Plus, we are getting ready to move and just listed the house, so my body has been taxed with the cleaning and lifting and such, so I'm sure that's not helping. Definitely time for rest and replenishing my mental and physical resources!
Then, I will be ready to tackle the rest of my week! What do you do to recharge your batteries?
OK, I have a confession.
I had restaurant food tonight. I shouldn't have, because I also had crab earlier this week and that was already a splurge.
But, I also am not feeling so guilty about it... because after I had my restaurant dinner, I went home and had my Jenny Craig dessert, and I already feel fine about having my JC food tomorrow... like, this was a blip on the path. And, when I inputted it into MFP, I found I'm only about 350 calories over for the day from where I should be (and only about 750 calories over for the week, out of what should be a 10,500 calorie week... I'm on the 1500 calorie plan). Plus, the scale has been kind to me this week (so far down 4 lbs, we'll see what the official verdict is tomorrow at weigh-in), and my workouts have been stellar, if I do say so myself.
I want to keep on-track, but I also know that foregoing family dinners at a restaurant every single time would become a deprivation problem. So... I'm staying on-track at about a 91% compliance rate, and not feeling defeated that I'm not perfect (which, I am often a perfectionist, so this is a big deal for me). I need this diet to work for my life. That said, I am going to be firmer about not dining out this coming week (my week 4 starts tomorrow) since I had those couple of blips this week, just so I don't start letting myself "get away" with too much and start being self-defeating.
So, my Oopsies for today: things have been pretty busy at the office, and when that happens, I lose track of time and don't eat when I'm supposed to. It's of particular concern right now because I have 3 real estate deals all happening at once (such transactions are kind of challenging in Illinois), so everything is time sensitive. So, if something is needed "now, now, now" there really isn't much time to eat until "later, later, later."
And that's how I ended up eating half of my lunch, and my afternoon snack, at about 3pm. I fortunately managed to sneak in my entree at 12pm, so I wasn't too bad, but I was definitely feeling pretty hungry by then!
My Daisies for today: I managed to make it allllllll the way downtown to Chicago City Hall today (it's over an hour in traffic) and got fingerprinted! ... No, I didn't commit a crime. It's a requirement for anyone wanting to volunteer with Chicago Animal Care & Control. One of my big goals in life is to have a facility where I can foster several animals at a time (which I'm actually close to attaining... but I'll go into that some other time). Chicago, being a bigger city, has a lot of animals in need, so I decided to focus my efforts with them. While this may not seem like much, the benefit of this is, I will be getting a lot of experience with different animals, who will present me with a variety of challenges.
BUT, first I have to deal with "Crook County" (it's actually Cook County, but people who live around Chicago know how they really are) and their laborious intake process. The sad thing is, the process is very prohibitive, keeping more people from volunteering and depriving the shelter of helping hands. (While it does keep out dishonest folks who might not have the dogs' best interests at heart, it can also keep away a lot of well-meaning people, too).
1) You have to attend a volunteer orientation - they have them a couple times a month, so that's not a big deal.
2) You have to undergo a criminal background check - makes sense, you don't want anyone with animal cruelty history to be let in.
3) You have to get fingerprinted - and the only place to get fingerprinted is at Chicago City Hall, between the hours of 9am and 3pm, Monday through Friday. (...uh, really?)
4) After getting fingerprinted, there is a 4 to 6 WEEK processing time lag to get approved while they await the results of the fingerprinting!
5) Then, and only then, can you get trained. (training is not arduous, you come in and walk dogs with an experienced volunteer for a couple of sessions, after that, you can come in whenever you want)
So, for me, the hard part, finding time to get over and get fingerprinted, is done, and it's just a matter of time now. I just want to get in there and start walking the dogs and helping them! I will only be able to make it for a couple sessions a month, but it's something I desperately want to do, seeing all those dogs in need of time outside of their cages, some fresh air and a chance to stretch their legs. I can't wait until I can do more to help them, but for now, I'm focusing on the smaller victories that are building me up to where I want to be.
OK, not a lot of "weight loss" and stuff in this post, but, it's what I'm focused on right now and what's motivating me to stay in shape, I'll need those strong legs for exercising puppy dogs!
Also, these are my own lil' monsters, I love 'em to pieces. They are both girls. The Jack Russell Terrier is named Scout (she's a mischief maker and a tom boy) and the Lab-Chow mix is Taunie (she is the golden child who can do no wrong).
Weight loss has always been one of the hardest things that I have ever had to do. I have always been a big girl, and in my younger years I just accepted that I was bigger and that nothing was going to change.
Now that I only have forty-two pounds until my goal of 130, I find myself falling in love with myself. I feel absolutely beautiful and that is something that I have never experienced.
The one piece of advice that I can offer someone just starting out on Jenny, is to give the program a chance. I know that there are foods that you're not going to like or want to eat; just go in with an open mind. There are ways to add to your food (seasoning, spices and veggies) that will allow you to stay on plan while trying new things.
The next one is cost, yes it can be pricey, but in the end how can you put a value on your life? Looking back now, I would pay it all again, this way that I feel is priceless and I only hope that everyone that has started this journey feels it as well. For me, this journey has been about taking control of my life and my choices; for so long I was controlled by food and winning this membership gave me an advantage as well as the opportunity to take my life back.
I am no longer an obese 278.4 pound woman and I will never be her again. My name is Tricia Marie Hensley, I am a wife, mother, daughter, sister, student, business woman. There are many words that can be used to describe who I am, but that do not define me.
If I can hope for anything, it is that my words are able to help someone that is struggling on this journey. Everyone's journey is going to be different, but this forum has shown me that with a little support you can go a long way.
Love who you are, you are worth it. You have taken the first step! You've got this, we've got this!
I'm really tempted to whine today.
So, couple things about me:
1) I have chronic pain; I've had it in my hip for 12+ years (I'm in my 30's, it started right out of college) and it also periodically migrates to my back, or causes other peripheral pains throughout my back and neck
2) I'm a woman working in a male-dominated industry and I get frustrated easily by the Old Boys Club. I'm working on letting it slide off my back, but there are times where I just have to put my foot down, and I'm just not a confrontational person, so it's difficult for me to deal with those times.
Today, my chronic pain is higher than usual. I also had to deal with a very condescending older man who wanted to argue over legal terminology with me (I'm an attorney, he is not). My schedule is pretty full, and I'm tired and bordering on anxious and depressed. Plus, I'm angry at myself because I scraped someone's bumper while parking a couple weeks ago, and I am now paying the repair on that, which is an expense I just don't need, but I will never be the person who doesn't leave a note for doing something like that (Plus... I left a note, and the person is STILL requesting a cashier's check, so I have to pay the fee for it! Lady, if I didn't want to pay you, I wouldn't have left a note in the first place and just gotten away with it!).
To counteract this, I'm going to list off some positive things:
1) Tonight, I'm having a little bit of seafood for dinner (it'll be a little indulgent, but I'm not going to go crazy - I've learned I can actually handle moderation when I need to)
2) Soon, I will have my two puppy dogs by my side, wagging their tails and cheering me up with their kisses
3) I've made a little bit of money today, which is reassuring, as I'm a small business owner and sometimes get a little financially stressed
4) I gained some weight (1 pound) on vacation, but today I'm down to lower than I was before vacation
5) I managed to do my workout today, despite my back pain (it is pain that, if I keep active, won't stiffen up - it's better to be active than to rest, but sometimes I feel so defeated that I can barely move... today, I overcame that and even did some of my harder exercises on the TRX)
6) I managed to handle the condescending older man while still being classy and professional, but also firm and standing my ground.
7) I get to read a really nice book before I go to sleep tonight (Name of the Wind... almost done with it and ready to start on Book 2 of the series)
Time to power on through and finish the day strong!
Hey everyone - just a low key Saturday - Sure I walked 12 miles that was a tad strange but it was fun... (...LOL). And wanted to post a picture to say it's not just a normal day. Normal for me was gaining weight, being heavy and wishing I could go on a diet. So just checking in - and pretty sure people are sick of all my diatribes on the forum posts. I figure this is my section.. so I can be as vain or boring as I want here .No? Anyway - Off I go to JC today, Trying to not buy expensive entrees and transition more to MOMOs. (LOL I have been on maintenance for many months... and I still buy Jenny. I definitely need to go get weighed in, but I want to substitute the foods with homemade or lower cost items. When on Jenny and ever since August 2016 all I did was buy the Jenny food d, but lately am more price conscious, so why not save some money? I am reluctant - because if it ain't broke don't fix it.... But the budget beckons... and so today we shall see how I do. Maybe buy nothing? OMG. WOW.. I know I have food in the freezer... But feels like such a leap of faith. Think about the money I would spend and use it in the grocery store when I need it. .. Worst case - Jenny is 6 minutes away. OK be strong. That is my plan. Except maybe shakes.... I like that stuff now in my coffee.
OK point of Blog was to post a picture -- Toronto asked me to send one, so I snuck off Thursday eve's data to have the hostess take a photo.... Anyway... Here's why this is not just an ordinary day. I am thin!!! Does is it get old? Heck no! OK off to JC.... See how we did this week.
I am in my third week back on the program. It has been a challenge but I am staying the course. My family doctor put me on some heavy duty antibiotics for a horrible sinus infection. I found out that the antibiotic that I am taking has a side effect of rapid weight gain so I have been drinking a ton of water and staying true to the menus because the last thing I want to see, at my weekly weigh in, is jump in my weight. My first week I lost a little over a pound and then last week I lost three pounds. So very excited!! Good news, two more days of antibiotics. Yippee!!
I have some younger co-workers who are working hard to get back into shape and are trying to eat as clean as possible. They are a great inspiration to me and have helped me stay true to the program. They encourage me to drink my water and if I go to long with out eating they remind me it is time for my snack or go have lunch. It's wonderful when people care and reach out to help.
February 1st is my goal date to begin walking workouts again. I have been in physical therapy for a bum shoulder and hips that are out of whack. I'm hoping I will have made enough progress to once again add exercise back into my daily routine. Missing my walks!!
My son had is yearly physical on Tuesday and I had to share the results! From his charts he went from 133 pounds to 109 (still a little high for his height and age) but we are still working on it. He is currently at 56.7 inches tall and the doctor expects to see a growth spurt soon. She said that he looks great compared to where he was last year! She started to tell us about proper portions of fruits and veggies and I was proudly able to tell her that he eats 3-4 servings of fruit per day as well as 2-3 servings of veggies per day. BAM! While I have lost 94.4 pounds and my husband has lost 63 pounds, my son's 24 pound loss is what makes me happiest. His loss shows me that I will be successful on the maintenance program and that I can do this. It also shows me that my positive changes are making a huge difference, and that is a great accomplishment.
Thank you Jenny Craig for everything that you have done for me! I honestly believe that you have changed an entire family's life and I am and will always be eternally grateful!
So it occurred to me that one of my goals for the New year's challenge is to drink 1/2 my body weight in ounces of water a day. I recently listened to a podcast on losing weight and they were saying big huge goals dont really work for weight loss or to make significant changes. So do goals that support the longer term gola. So I guess my goal is to be healthier and reduce bloat and whatever else water does for you..... also 8 glasses a day today does not seem achievable... so thought I would blog my goal here and record my results.
OK my esteemed sister told me 1 bottle has 16 ounces of water... 4-5 bottles does seem doable
1) Goal: Drink 1/2 my body weight in ounces of water per day by end of 2018
Mini Goal - Drink minimum of 3 bottles of water Week 1 1/2 - 1/7
Morning - when possible - Drink hot water and lemon with ACV (Apple Cider Vinegar) to help internal organs do their thing
Drink only 1 glass of coffee at breakfast (can drink more other times of day (COnsider reducing) and drink 2 bottles (32 ounces) of water between breakfast and lunch
Drink 1-2 bottles of water between lunch and dinner (32 ounces)
Water during workout does not count
Day 1 Status: Tuesday: Drank 2 bottles before a late lunch and 1 after lunch total of 48 ounces (Plus 12 or so in my Morning drink that I don't count). See how I do tomorrow...or maybe I should include my hot water with lemon and ACV too? I think I will measure it and include it in my tally.
2/3 OK have to recommit and drink more water!!! Coffee gets in the way and my compulsiveness for a hit... something flavorful... Let's do this this week!
The last six months of 2017 were some of the best moments of my life. In June I won Jenny memberships for myself and my husband, and we began our Jenny journey together. 26 weeks later and I have lost 89.8 pounds, my husband has lost 66.2 pounds and our son has lost 22.4 pounds. Our lives will be forever changed, and I am extremely grateful.
In 2018 we will all meet our goal weights and I could not be happier. I look forward to fishing on the Mesa, there were so many lakes that I could not fish at due to the lengthy hikes and I look forward to being able to fish every (fishable) lake up there. Also, I look forward to celebrating my 37th birthday half of myself and smoke free for 1 year and 6 months. I also look forward to the 'Biggest Loser' makeover that I am going to give myself once my goal is met, a new me deserves a new look and I am excited.
Since starting this journey I have had faced many people (even loved ones) that judged this journey and still do this day doubt that I will be able to maintain it once I am not eating the planned menus. I will not let them or their words get me down, I will prove to them that I can and will do this. I will be successful, all of the weight that I have lost since I started this journey is gone, I will not be going back to the woman that I was. I am happier, healthier, and I look forward to living a long life.
As this year ends and you reflect on 2017, what are you most thankful for? What do you look forward to in 2018?
Happy New Years to my Jenny family. XOXO
Recently I was talking to a friend about losing weight. I told her how much I hoped to lose and she reached out and gave me a huge hug and asked what she could do to help. I told her to be kind and cheer me on when I started questioning why I was doing this. She said not a problem but she also told me the biggest challenge in losing a large amount of weight is the mental work. It's really not about the food or nutrition as much as the life and eating habits. I thought about her words and realized, for me, that is so true. I have been able to lose to a certain weight range many times but for some reason once I get to that range I let all sorts of thoughts creep in and I never get out of that range.
Basically once I get there I mentally give up but this time around I am not going to let my thoughts defeat me! How do I know that my thoughts won't defeat me this time? Because I figured out what I was afraid of and decided to conquer those fears so that I could live a healthy lifestyle and first step to living a healthy lifestyle means losing all this weight. I realize this is going to be hard work and I need to be positive about the out come. One thing I'm doing, I'm mentally picturing myself at my goal. I've set out outfits that I am going to wear as the weight goes down and I've got a terrific support group. It's been a long time since I have felt confident and happy with my choices and I know with out a doubt that I will succeed this time.
Life is good!
So I am prepping for surgery and want to be as healthy as possible. One of my struggles is eating too many veggies and gas. I figure this is a good time to try and cut back! So starting tomorrow for each lunch and dinner I will commit to one veggie portion. Not a salad and veggie, not nibbling before hand. No need to I can always eat between meals - have a yogurt, water, soda, tea, or a veggie. I feel like I eat so much at meals because I don;t want to feel deprived and think I will be hungry. I won't.
So I rushed over to the pc to declare this to my JC peeps.
B - Usual
S- Snack - Yogurt and fruit
L - JC meal and 8 - 10 ounces salad with dressing
S - Yogurt and maybe fruit
D - JCC meal with cooked veggie 8-10 ounces
Dessert - Artic Zero
Also if you read this far (thanks!) new email for JC peeps MIssBumble2018@gmail.com
Figured I would just use that for JC and it would be easy to see any emails. Figured I would be vulnerable being in pain after surgery and committing to eat less stuffing food. So might need some of your fabulous support. Ill also read the forum .. If I don't write back right away - attribute it to pain killers.
Anyway pre-op appointment tomorrow. Wish me luck
Jenny Craig has changed my life! I am not plugging or advertising for them, but I honestly do not think I could have gotten to where I am today without them! Winning that membership was one of the best things that has happened to me. I have attached some transformation photos to show you the physical changes for myself and my husband. While the physical changes are great, the emotional changes have been the best! I have 62.8 pounds to go until I am at goal, but I am final happy with myself and I am eternally grateful to Dress Barn and my Jenny center for this opportunity.
My ultimate goal is to win the Half of Me contest that Jenny offers, to show others like me that Jenny works. To motivate and encourage others, to help them see that they can do it to, if they just believe.
If at any time you are struggling and need someone to talk to, I will listen email me at: email@example.com. Sometimes, all it takes is having someone to talk to and someone that will listen. I will be here for anyone that needs it. We've got this!
Warning Controversial Posts - As I imagine some of you are against surgery....So you may want to skip this one....
Hi Guys - We' ll for years I have been thinking of getting plastic surgery on my breasts. After losing 100 lbs in Overeater's Anonymous I had a tummy tuck (abdomnioplasty) and thigh skin removed etc (lipectomy) but skipped the breasts. The Abdomen surgery tightened the muscle and removed a ton of excess skin. The thigh = left a pretty big scar, but also got rid of extra skin. I had tons of extra skin.....
So eventually I gained about 60 lbs (kept the 100 off for 10+ years..and then gained.. to August 13 or so 2016 when I decided to make a change. Jenny Craig .. and now Maintenance with a lot of JC frozen meals and some liberties.
So I have decided to do a breast lift and augmentation.. The lift is key when you have lost a lot of weight and augmentation will round out the solution since they currently are like 1/4 filled ziploc bags with water. This surgery will allow me to buy bras at any old store, find workout bras easier.... and go braless if I have the right outfit. So I can see the importance.
So went in for a consult and said what else would you do. The Surgeon recommended a few things.. and got me thinking. I agreed with some, not all - and the prices were astonishing.. so going for 2nd and third opinions. So not jumping at this just yet.
What did they suggest?
1) Under eye baggy area lift - they are really think skinned, very wrinkly and droopy and make me look tired. So this is a local anesthesia operation and not huge.
2) Breast implant and lift - Expensive. When younger people or fit people do this originally - some get away with just an implant. I need both.
3) Retouching up the abdomnioplasty... basically will even get some of the skin drooping near thighs and my extra 2 inches or so of skin on stomach. But you know I may not do that one - as so what if I have a muffin top.. It really is not bad
4) This is the huge one.... redo the thighs sort of by lifting everything up... hard to explain. But sounds major. So if you are very heavy lost a ton of skin... you know what's left (for me anyway) is tough to look at. That said I may just live with it... surgery sounds huge.....
Bottom line - will likely do my eyes at some point and my breasts soon... once I find right doctor. It will be interesting to see what the next doctor recommends. I was pretty open with saying I wanted to know their opinions. I am pretty sure I will stick with my wish list - which is I have always wanted to be able to fit into bras better etc. So I think the Breast lift/enhancement (BTW these will be small oranges not cantaloupes)
Th e doctor did say I could use some fat on my face.. gain a little weight? That's scary to hear. But at least if I do gain a little I can have comfort that it might make my face look better.... Anyway I don't want to let that thought get out of control a I want to stay at my 140 maintenance weight. It works! My next blog will likely be about maintenance. As I am listening to the Half Size Me podcast and been thinking about it alot.
Since I was awarded my Jenny membership, I have stuck to the planned menus (that includes the limited free foods). This is something that I would like to maintain until I come to the end of my Jenny journey. The upcoming Thanksgiving holiday had me a little worried, that I would not be strong enough with all of the food. Well, I was wrong! My husband and I heated up our Turkey Medallion meals, and plated them. We sat down as a family and enjoyed our meals. I was able to stay on plan, and I was so beyond proud of myself. If the number on the scale on Friday does not reflect the good choices I made, I will be disappointed, but I will not be discouraged. I could have given in and wandered off plan, but I didn't. I am proud of myself.
We did not get to the gym, because we just don't get over there enough and I didn't want to be rude. Instea7d we went to 7 Falls to look at the lighted waterfalls. I am extremely afraid of heights, but was able to get halfway up (roughly 100 flights of stairs). I was petrified once I realized that I had to go back down, but I did it. Next, went to the Cave of the Winds, and on a tour of the Caves which was a mile long walk. My upper thighs are still killing me! We also went on several small walks with the dogs, but it was not as much as we are used to, but I am okay with this.
Should the scale not reflect this amazing accomplishment, I will be okay. I am so beyond proud that I was able to go in with a plan and stick to it. We had a great visit with family that we do not get to see every day or even every year and that beats the number on the scale! Holidays will no longer cause me stress and anxiety and now I know that I will be fine as long as I go in with a plan and communicate it with the people that I am spending it with.
Now, we are back home and getting back on track. Went to the gym yesterday and it felt so good! This week I am looking forward to being under 200 pounds (first time in over 6 years!) and I am going to keep pushing to ensure that I get there!
What was or is your worst fear when it comes to the holiday season? Were you able to overcome it? If so, how?
Had to try my new bundt pan, so I made this non-recipe:
1 box of Pillsburry Sugar-Free Vanilla Cake
1 can (15 oz) Libby's pumpkin puree
3/4 cup milk or water
pure vanilla extract, optional
Mix and bake at 325 for about 30 minutes. Makes 16 generous servings (98 cal, 1.5 g fat, 26 g carbs, 1.9 g protein).
Next time I may try greek yogurt instead of milk. Not yet sure if this freezes well.
I did it! I know I have posted this already, but I am so very proud of myself and I want to celebrate!
I have been working incredibly hard since I started this program and have not deviated from it. (Not once). When I feel hungry, I eat some veggies my favorite being carrot sticks and cucumbers and drink water. As many of you already know, I won my Jenny membership in a contest. When I got the phone call I was going through a rough time, my daughter had just graduated high school and moved out without a word while I was at work. I was devastated at the thought of being such a horrible mother. When the call came I knew it was a sign, it was time for me to stop worrying about her and start working on myself, change my focus.
Now, my daughter and I have a somewhat better relationship, but that did not happen until I realized that she is an adult and I need to let her go to make her own mistakes. Now, it is time to focus on my son, husband and myself. Once I realized that I was worth it, I was able to focus on my goal and I will not let anything detour me, I will succeed! I am 100% dedicated to myself and this journey is making me feel so good about who I am and it has been a long time (if ever) that I have been able to say that.
My advice is to follow your planned meals, yes it can be pricey but so is medications, larger clothing, and eating out. There are going to be meals that are not your favorite, but enhance them with seasonings, and veggies. I have to eat the garden vegetable fritata with a table spoon of salsa. If you start feeling hungry between meals, chug a bottle of water or snack on some carrots or cucumbers (free veggies). This program works, if you let it. You deserve this and you can do it! Lastly, reach out. This forum is a great place for support and encouragement. While each journey is different we are all walking the same path and I enjoy coming here daily. Don't think you can do it? I challenge you to do one full week of pre-planned meals, drink plenty of water, and no deviation. I think you can do it, do you?
I am going to have to figure out what I want to do about binging. It's a habit I have for the most part avoided in the last year or two. It comes on me out of the blue. Like for instance today I was so happy about my weigh in, both at home and at Jenny. Down 1.4. But I was almost blacking out at home. Not sure why. I didn't want to eat before my weigh in but I did have an Anytime bar to tide me over. Today I had ordered Planned Menu #1 and as I was going over it I noticed it included a Breakfast Chocolate Muffin. That is a very bad breakfast choice for me. So what do I do when I get home. I dive for that muffin. I even ate the paper. Ok next I want more chocolate so I have my snack early (10:30 am) -- Cookies and Cream Cake. Hmm. There's also the Breakfast Cinnamon Rolls and I could count them as today's Lunch, no? Done. Hmmm. Almost done with my binge. Almost. What else is there? How about the chocolate lava cake? Done. Ok let's go to MFP and look at the damage. If i add in the 7 oz Chardonnay I know I'm going to have (it's once a week wine Friday) it comes to 976. Ok. I will have JC Fish & Chips for dinner and a salad without dressing. That will bring me to 1216 plus salad. Ok it's just a smudge over the calorie threshold but probably screwed up my carbs and sugars big time. But I'm saying this is my plan and it's not even noon yet. Can I keep to this?
Also, long term, I think I am going to have to forego the 10% planned menu discount and substitute any items like muffins, cinnamon rolls and sweet desserts for something not sweet because realistically is it worth about $20 a week to be tempted to binge like this? I don't think so.
Now the funny thing is our house is full of sweets, courtesy of my husband. But I have trained myself to bypass them or allow myself only the tiniest portion. I also never pick up treats when out shopping and neither am I tempted to get in the car or walk somewhere (we have a bakery at the end of our block and a frozen yogurt across the street) and buy a treat. So this latest binge is just a newer form of temptation which I need to strategize around.
I have written on and off in a diary -- an actual book, or scraps of paper, or digitally ever since childhood. Sometimes I like to go back and read. Today I came across this, written maybe only a few years ago, excuse the typos and lack of punctuation/capitalization. I type very quickly to capture my thoughts and don't take the time to capitalize and fix errors:
the other day not sure what made me think about this but i asked myself what in the world would make me happiest? would it be a trip to France, o being able to speak French like a native, or writing a novel and having it published and I realized that no, none of this would make me happy at all if i were not thin. now rather than be ashamed of having such a superficial desire — to look good and wear fashionable clothes and look fantastic in them — i decided to embrace that goal. if that's what i really want then why not pursue and achieve it. it's a goal that can still be achieved, i believe, without starving myself or denying myself any particular food. the only action i need to hew (ww?) to is the only eat when hungry and stop before i feel full. is that not doable? if not following that regimen keeps me from my most desired thing in life what does it say about me? that i do not want to be happy? that i am afraid of happiness? that i am avoiding happiness because i feel i don't deserve it or that i think it is an unworthy goal? why not honor myself? why judge myself and think of this goal as unworthy? the other thing it says about me is that i want the immediate in lieu of the discipline needed to achieve long-term goals. partly i think it is connected to losing sight of my goal as the day progresses. i am fine at breakfast, even at lunch, maybe even up to mid-afternoon but somewhere after 2 pm i start to want something for this day. what is the solution? is it to remind myself later in the day of my goals? i am going to try today by setting my phone alarm for 3 pm and take that time to do something … oh i know go on pinterest and look at clothes or grab my sketchbook and sketch something related, like a belted trenchcoat. that will be experiment for this day.
Yesterday we went to our Jenny Craig center for dinner and some tips on how to get through the up coming holiday. There was only a small group of us, but when we walked in they asked for our permission to share our stories and we consented. I have been very vocal about my journey and if I can inspire even one person, I will be happy. Since winning my membership with Jenny I have not eaten anything off of plan, I have not allowed myself the limited extras and I am just following my plan. When I accepted my prize I committed to the program. I am not saying that I am better than anyone, or that everyone needs to do as I am doing. Everyone's journey is going to be different.
When my consultant was speaking about me, it made me feel so good that my story was being used to encourage on this journey. Since I started the program on June 26th I have lost 72 pounds by following the program (as of 11/10/17). All of my life I have been overweight and have never had the strength to fight the impulse, food was my best friend. Hearing Janey tell my story made me so proud of myself. I am proud of the work and commitment that I see in myself. Also, it doesn't stop there, I want to encourage and motivate others that are like me, show them that they can do this and they are worth it.
My goal is to make the half of me edition of People magazine by losing 148 pounds. I want to share my story, let others know that being almost 300lbs. does not mean that you cannot lose the weight. I want people to hear my story and know that Jenny Craig works and is not only for celebrities. #journeytohalfofme
If you are reading this and you have been struggling, message me. This site is a great place for motivation an encouragement, and I am here to do what I can. We can do this!
One of these days, I'll learn to not pat myself on the back so quickly. It always seems to follow with a crash of some sort. I feel like I set myself up for failure. It seems I just can't feel good about an accomplishment until I complete the project. In this case, the project is my healthy eating and weight loss. Why do I do this to myself? It's as if all my demons come out of the close and talk me down.
So... to the point of the food issue: I had some sibling family issues that I took to heart before I bounded onto a bus for an overnight trip to see the Rockettes in NYC. The family issues didn't appear to bother me on the outside. I wasn't really thinking about them, but subliminally they probably caused me some sadness (a food trigger for me). The person I was on the trip with also encouraged me to be off plan for the weekend and enjoy whatever I wanted to eat. OK, yes. I didn't want to eat JC food or think about it. The meals on the trip were pre-ordered. I did fine until I got hungry. I'm assuming I got hungry because my JC plan fills me up with lots of crunchy veges, to which I didn't have access. I got on the scale when I returned and gained 2.5 pounds in 2 days. TWO DAYS! I should mention that 3 days later, it's all off BUT!
It's not a big deal to have a weekend off plan, so long as we go right back into JC as soon as we're back to reality. I'm still in learning phase and this is learning for a lifetime. I accomplished the task of returning to plan, but something was different this time. I really, REALLY didn't want to go back on plan. It took all I could to muster in my strength to get back on the wagon.
In the past I would not have continued. I would have been disgusted with myself. This time? I just don't know. I'm committed. I'm ready to get to goal. I just have to stop beating myself up about the bad days.
How do you clear your mind so that you don't sabotage your good work?
Yeah, I said it. I'm giving myself a pat on the back. I think us women need to do that every now and then. We don't need other people to do it for us. We need to make sure we're doing it to ourselves, right? So, why am I giving myself a pat on the back? Because I'm rockin' the JC vibe! I got through a potentially destructive day:
I signed up to be a Polling Inspector in our NY general election this year. On Tuesday, I arrived at 5:30 am and readied myself for a long day until 9:30 pm. I actually thought ahead. I packed all my JC non-frozen foods for the day because I just didn't want to be caught off guard. Into my backpack went the cranberry/almond barscotti, the chicken salad meal, the fiesta chicken & rice; a JC chocolate shake, a low-fat mozzerella cheese stick, an apple and ranch snaps. Plus two large containers of coffee and a bottle of water.
I should explain that, in the past, I would NEVER do this. It would be my excuse to go off plan. It's going to be a long day and I need the sustenance, right? How could I let all the lil' ole ladies down when they brought in the baked goods, candies and meals for us as we're working away?
Mindset change: I GOT THIS. I didn't have a single baked good, donut, candy, potato chip (my weakness). I didn't even have the roast pork dinner the church was having for the voters, although I did give a donation in lieu of a meal. Nope! I told them I had goals to meet. I wanted to stay on track, especially during this holiday season. Oh they tried, believe me. They came so close as to even trying to put a donut next to my lips. (WTH!) No thanks, I said. I walked away and went into the bathroom to get away from them for a bit, go potty, and to regroup. What is wrong with people? and why do they think that's funny?? I felt like I was being pressured by a drug dealer! Yeah .... sugar drug dealer. UGH! I let it go and didn't dwell on what just happened.
When the dinner came in from the church for the other inspectors, I had a brief moment of regret that I didn't get my own plate. The food smelled really good. I mean, really, really good! But I breathed in through my nose, counted to 10, and pulled out my JC Chicken & Rice meal. I went into the kitchen and heated it up. And I ate it.
Was it as good as their meal probably tasted (and they did have to let me know how good it tasted)? Not really - I didn't doctor it up in my usual way with more veges. But it worked. I have goals... I'm going to do this. I focused on the voters coming in. I checked them in and did all 3 of our jobs while they ate their meal. Anything to keep me busy as the potato chip bag was opened and the smell was wafting through the room, along with roast pork in alot of gravy. I so wanted a potato chip, but we all know one leads to a whole bag - at least for me - and then complete regret.
They ate their chips; I crunched on my ranch snaps. No worries. As the day went on, I felt stronger. As the day turned into night, I became more invincible. OMG! I said to myself. I'M ACTUALLY DOING THIS!
The night ended and I was so proud of myself - and amazed at who I am becoming.
The takeaway from this? STAY STRONG SISTER! And pat yourself on the back every now and then. You deserve it.
On the left is a picture of my husband and I from one year ago at our first Bronco game together. The picture on the right is from this passed Sunday. Combined we have lost 115 pounds.
I just had to share.