I fell a little behind on the forums and keeping up with my blog, because last week, I got hit with a NASTY bug... an awful sinus infection!!
It started on Wednesday night, I woke up in the middle of the night with a sore throat, and by Thursday morning I was coughing a lot. I was still functional, it was really just the sore throat at that point, so I kind of prayed that it was allergies and powered through my day.
Well, late Thursday night I woke up and could hardly fall back to sleep, because that's when the sinus problems really started. Oh, boy I was NOT a happy camper. Friday morning, I woke up to terrible sinus pain. I had to survive a client meeting in the morning, but I left right away and went home afterward. I tried to rest, but the pain was so terrible, any shifting at all and my sinuses would just throb and throb. I finally managed to fall asleep at 7pm and woke up on Saturday morning. The pain had gone down by a significant margin, though it was still lingering in the background and I was pretty congested.
But, I committed to work an adoption event at the city shelter that day, so I got my meds, packed a bunch of extra tissues and water, and helped 10 dogs (and 1 cat) get adopted that day! (and by helped, I mean I stood around a lot, but I did answer questions, direct traffic, got people connected with their volunteers and adoption counselors, etc, so it was a lot of "hurry up and wait" but it was good)
So, through all of this, it was really, really hard to eat. I just didn't feel like it. I made myself eat some things, but it was not easy. Then, when I finally got a little bit of appetite back on Saturday night/Sunday, it's like my body latched onto all the food and doesn't want to let it go. Before the sickness set in, I was down a few pounds, and then when I wasn't able to eat, I was down even more. But, when I weighed myself this morning, I'd gained it all back. I deviated from plan just a little bit (I got some hot and sour soup to clear my sinuses, and had some crackers, and I did have a couple cookies when nothing else sounded good but I really needed to eat), but not that much, so I was surprised that it all came back as soon as I was able to eat with a normal appetite again. So, I'm a bit disappointed, but I will keep on trucking - illness just sucks and I had to get through it to get to the other side.
100% on plan yesterday - feels good! And pancakes for breakfast - who doesn't love that?
I'm really excited to weigh in tomorrow, but I've got to buckle down and have a productive work day today! It's hard though. I'm such an all-or-nothing person. I can work like a maniac, really over-working myself, for a period of time, but then I get onto something else and excited about it and I turn into a real scatterbrain about work. I just want to read the forums and fill out my menu and organize my freezer! I don't want to prepare quotes or invoice anyone!
And part of me thinks: That's okay. Use the enthusiasm to really get in the JC groove. It will be good to establish good routines and have things set up for the future when it gets to be less exciting. And the other part of me thinks: Just work. If work suffers then you'll get stressed about it, and work stress is a trigger for off-plan choices!
The second voice is right. I need to work now and then indulge in all my silly JC-centric rituals and meditations this evening! It's just remarkable to me that when things go good it's so much easier for things to KEEP going good! But then, slacking at work is sort of a round-about way to self-sabatoge. So I'll resist that. Off to get my work To Do list complete. Check, check, check. Just like my JC menu.
Ah - there's the option to BLOG! THAT's what I was looking for.
I wrote a couple novels over in the forum boards, but was feeling... I don't know... like what I really wanted was a BLOG!
So I'm on Day 5 and I've had a curious week.
I binged out a little on Day 2 - that breakfast bagel is not the breakfast for me. I negotiated with myself (always a harbinger of an off plan choice) for some fancy cheese spread on the bagel, which tasted pretty good - lots of salt - and next thing you know, I've had 2 more bagels (from my kitchen, like food for my fam, not for me) with all the rest of the cheese.
I'm not sure it's a good idea for me to weigh myself every day - I can get really obsessive about the scale, weighing multiple times in the morning... it just gets silly. So I have been weighing myself a bit, but not writing it down, and certainly not agreeing with that space on my menu for "daily weight." No. BUT I did happen to have weighed myself and seen 227 and then after the binge it was like 229.something, and very discouraging. But I'd written on the front of my menu in the "This week's plan for success:" spot: "Don't overthink it - let the plan do the thinking for you. Just follow the plan."
I was listening to an audio book by a woman who had lost weight, and she happened to say, "Don't overthink it," in the part of the book I was listening to. It called me back! It was just a coincidence I'm sure, but I felt grounded again. Just follow the plan.
So then I strung together several on plan (or almost on plan) days. I had a 200 calorie slip up yesterday, but for the most part, I'm feeling empowered. My weight today was down to 226.something, which put me in a good mood. I'm must not cower in the face of a gain/plateau on the scale though. Which is why I think not weighing might be the better choice for me. Also - I weigh in the morning in light pj's. I'm pretty sure if I weigh on Tues morning like I normally do, I'll be disappointed at my Tuesday 3pm appt when I'll have eaten and drank breakfast and lunch! And I don't want to be disappointed at my appt - I want to be delighted! And I think if I stay on plan today, Monday, and Tuesday, and don't weigh in the mornings, that this is JUST what will happen!
I'm really seeing my time at JC as a training course, or a boot camp maybe! My eating has become really disordered over the years. Part of it has been that I've tried some really serious diets that produce results but are so counter-cultural, they end up being really difficult to stick to... Nutritarianism anyone? And while I believe that Dr. Furhman (author of Eat to Live, and a zillion other books that all say the same thing: you will be healthy if you eat only fruits, vegetables, beans, nuts, and seeds) is exactly right - I need some baby steps toward that kind of eating. Instead, I've just gotten overwhelmed and binged and binged.
So now I'm trying to learn how to eat 3 meals and give myself permission to have 2 snacks every day. I totally believe in ending the eating window fairly early each evening, so I put the evening treat either in the afternoon or as a part of my evening meal. The portion sizes are critical - I'm trying to re-intigrate a proper understanding of a reasonable portion size! And then the routine eating of fruits and vegetables is also something I consider to be a high priority. I've swung wildly in the past between all veg all the time and then none for weeks on end. I need that balance of salads, fruit, and veg every day, but not to the exclusion of other food groups, b/c that's when I really start feeling deprived and a binge sneaks up and grabs me!
I remember from prior JC periods in my life and my mom and I marvelled over the following sitch: "I wanted an off program treat, but I resisted it. An hour later, I realized I felt fine. Like - I would feel exactly the same whether I had the treat or not - it wasn't some magical treat. If I had it, an hour later I would feel fine. If I didn't have it, an hour later I would feel fine. So how about I DON'T have it, save myself the calories, and in addition to feeling the same physically, I can also feel proud of myself for staying on course!"
Sun, Mon, Tues: on program days
Sun, Mon, Tues: no morning weigh ins, so I can be delighted with my Tuesday afternoon weigh in
Stay on task at work, b/c when I feel good about work, it's easy to feel good about the rest, and it's easier to make good decisions!
Dinner and breakfast eaten and onward with day 1 (yesterday I signed up in the afternoon and had a JC dinner - doesn't exactly seem like day 1). I wish I had thought to ask for an extra dinner so my menu would go Wed-Tues. I think I might do that next week, so that I don't have an evening of one day filled out and then the morning and afternoon wait a week... I'm a little particular about my menu, and I feel like JC makes room for that. My consultant put me on Week 2 to start and asked if that would be okay - she was very understanding that some people want the menu to say "week 1" during week 1. That's a switch I don't mind, but I thought it was really nice that she asked
After my waffles, 1/2 fruit, and shake, I'm feeling very full - which is a good sign. Not sure about that shake... it has an aftertaste that might not be my favorite. And this might be silly, but it seems like a greek yogurt with some fruit in it is more of a lifestyle change. I get a weird "slim fast" feeling drinking a shake... or I think of all the ladies I used to work with who did "Shakeology" and I think I'm just not a shake person. So next week, I'm might skip the shakes. It seemed like an optional addition when I put my menu together with my consultant - is that right?
Oh - and I forgot my snack last night. Stop the presses! This is HUGE NEWS! Dagney the UnDaunted was so enthused about starting the program, having my chicken pot pie, really not liking it so giving up after eating half, then eating an unlimited-foods salad along with my cooked veggies, that I forgot the SWEET TREAT! This is very out of character, and I think it will never happen again. It's like a solar eclipse or a blood moon or something - only happens once every 3 generations, so I won't be alive to do it when the time rolls around again! LOL!
But on that half-eaten pot pie: 1. I think I over cooked it, so the gravy got too thick, although I don't plan to try again to see anytime soon... too many other yummy options to try out first. 2. I felt so powerful, so in-control, being able to say, "I don't like this," but not entertaining the idea that I would do anything other than stop eating it and have some unlimited foods to ensure I felt satisfied with my meal. And I really did feel satisfied! It didn't actually occur to me to go roaming through my kitchen, negotiating with myself on how many calories do I think I left on the plate? Justifying an off-program choice with those uneaten bites of JC food.
Here's that I think is going on: I have dieted, on and off, since that first JC run in 2004. Which is to say, JC went great - I had great support from my mom, and then I got a roomate my senior year in college who was a swimmer and interested in healthy eating, so we supported each other, and then I got married and was very isolated those early years. I gained a lot, tried Jenny, tried a bunch of other things - and that's when the terribly cycle really took hold: I was alone, and I kept trying to do crazy things, and I really started binge eating - secret eating, huge portions, etc.
Then, things got sorted out on a personal level - I reconnected with friends, DH and I got some counseling (that's a good story - remind me to tell it!), but now I had established some very disordered eating habits: I had done some many "end of days" eating-fests the night before my perfect diet would start, that the binge-before-the-diet became my REGULAR DIET! That's a really effective way to gain a lot of weight.
Then I had my babies. I didn't gain or lost weigh with each one - fluctuating each pregnancy between 220-230. And I had my babies without epidurals (the second one was induced for health reasons, so that was really a wild ride!) but I felt so strong and empowered. (If you had a baby with an epidural, please don't hear me saying I think less of your choice - I only mean that this choice was right for me). So I was getting to a healthier mindset, but boy was our life crazy. Two kids in two years and all the breastfeeding and diapers and working during that time - we moved across the country twice, DH donated a kidney to my dad (saving his life), and I changed jobs 3 times. We opened and closed a church plant. We opened and closed a business. Now DH is back to school to be a math teacher and I've got a great job that gives us a little breathing room.
During all this time - the dieting continued, and I'd lose 5 pounds and gain it back, and on and on.
Until I stopped last fall.
I was tired of always feeling like such a failure, so I just gave myself permission to be at this weight. DH supported this: "I want you to be happy. I think not worrying so much about your weight might help!" And I visited a church I don't normally go to - and that's a whole story on it's own - and we prayed for in a way that really impacted me (remind me to tell you that story! LOL!).
But now: I'm starting Jenny having given myself a break from the horrible cycle. And my main goal is not to look cute in clothes (though I won't mind that if it happens). My main goal is to establish some normal eating practices. I don't want to binge and then have a perfect diet day only to blow it in the evening and feel like a failure for weeks, and then start all over again. I just want to learn proper portion-size, develop the habits of eating 3 times a day, drinking water, and not turning to food to fix any uncomfortable emotions.
Okay - I moved this (b/c I think I'll want to reflect on it later) from the Forum - my Day 1 entry:
Signed up today!
14 years ago I did the program with my mom during my last summer of college. I lost 10 pounds in 4 weeks and I was really surprised at what a difference 10 pounds can make! (160 down to 150)
It was a great summer b/c I wasn't working and my mom wasn't working - we just hung out, walked every day, and obsessed over food! I told her that I thought my boyfriend was going to propose that fall - which was great b/c it gave her some time to acclimate to that idea. And he did, and I kept losing that fall and spring and literally got married on the thinnest day of my adult life.
Our marriage got off to a tough start though - and I started gaining like crazy.
I did the program again a couple years after that, but I was really in a weight-gaining time of my life, so there were ups and downs... mostly ups. I could barely afford it, which created a lot of stress with my husband. He wanted to be supportive, but he didn't really know what was and wasn't helpful...
Now - life is completely different. I'm at 232, so I have a lot of weight to lose! But new to me know is that DH and I have a lot of life skills that we were lacking in our early twenties. We have 2 boys (4yo and 6yo), and we're in a much better place financially. I told him I was considering joining and he said, "Great!" That was it. No hesitation. No questions. No side eye. Just support.
I came home from my appt and said, "well - it was just what I wanted and I'm really pumped! Although... I did end up buying the $3 bagel. I should find a good substitution for that..." and he said, "Or - you just need to be oaky with buying a $3 bagel. I'm okay with it. That's the point right? They do the thinking, you don't worry about things. Just follow the plan." It was wonderful.
It's raining, so I can't go on the walk I'd planned... guess I should use the elliptical machine we bought last fall, eh? I'm silly.
I didn't have a very productive day at work, b/c I was just so excited to go sign up for JC! I'm going to capitalize on my enthusiasm and have a great start to my plan with my dinner and veg. I'm thrilled to be here! I'd love to hear from other newbies - we can revel in our newbie excitement and keep that positive energy going!!!!
AHHHH! I completely forgot to post yesterday! So day 3 was better. I drank the shake with breakfast and was feeling much more sustained throughout the morning. Not to mention the fact that I wasn't tempted by cake and spaghetti! I absolutely loved the Creamy Penne that I had for lunch, and the Loaded Baked Potato was heaven. I am a carboholic. I couldn't keep up with the Keto diet because I couldn't have my pasta and potatoes. JC is a God send and I thank God everyday that I have the money to do this and get healthy!
How was your Tuesday?
Aloha again! Today was day 2 and I am already starting to have horribly overwhelming cravings and feeling hungry. I am following the plan to the letter, but for some reason I don't think I am getting adequate protein or something because I'm not satisfied. I am on the 1500 cal diet, and I was very active today. So far, for my fruit, I have only had the allotted amount of apple and bananas, and I have been eating Dannon Light & Fit Greek Yogurt. I am thinking the shake did help more than me just going off the yogurt. I have been staying true to the plan and have not strayed, but man this is a killer. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
Oh, I forgot to mention that today is my son's 10th birthday. I am so glad I get the lemon cake because it is helping to keep me from cheating. If I wasn't on JC, I would have said "oh this is my son's birthday, I can have a slice to celebrate... and a nice [big] scoop of ice cream."
What has helped you keep the cravings and hunger at bay?
(written yesterday, posted in wrong spot!)
Hello everyone! My name is Jessie and today was day 1 for me on RR. I was doing really well until I found out that my son stole my S'mores bar that I was supposed to have tonight! I was really looking forward to it! He also ate my kettle corn and another bar... I also missed a couple of my fruit servings, so I just had an apple in place of the bar. I love the food so far though. I was so glad today was pizza day on my meal plan because we had pizza to celebrate my son's birthday, so the pizza and salad made it really easy to stick to the plan. I am really shocked at how full I have been today. The vanilla shake this morning worked wonders on my appetite, which is amazing because I am not usually able to control my appetite. I have struggled with binge eating disorder and my psychologist thought JC would be good because of the portion control. I am so proud of myself for not cheating and not binging!
So far, JC has been great... but it's only day 1. If the program is always this great, I will have no trouble dropping the 83#s I need to lose! I am so excited!!! I really hope to meet some great people on here as well. My husband has always been fit and does not know what it is like to be obese/overweight and have to work so hard to lose weight.
Good luck everyone!!!
I've been loving the supportive, uplifting community here for the past week or two since joining, and it feels like for every ounce of positivity I put out there, I get a pound back. Thank you! (And thank goodness a pound of positivity is NOT the same weight as a pound of fat, lol!)
I have to confess: I am struggling to have a positive attitude today. Unfortunately, yesterday and today my back and hip have been hurting more than usual, making it difficult to stand up or sit back down. Also, I've been encountering a few negative attitudes in my offline life that are just wearing me down. I haven't had all my mental resources available because they're getting used up keeping me distracted from my pain so I'm functional.
Also, is it just me or is it PMSy in here, like to to the Nth degree? Oh, wait, that's just me! ARGH.
I'm working hard to focus on my victories. I think, by this time next week, I'll be squarely out of the 170's and into the 160's for the first time in a couple years! Also, I have a new body con dress I'll be wearing on Monday for my weigh-in (my consultant is great and always tells me my outfit looks nice and it really boosts my self-esteem, it's the little things, lol!). I have a matching scarf to wear with it, too. I get clothing via a service called Le Tote, that lets me try a handful of new outfits every month (one of those "keep what you love, send back what you don't" services), and this'll be another one of them. I'm not good at picking out clothes for myself, so this has been a really good service for me to try new things, and I really look forward to the 2 or 3 boxes I get per month.
Today, I am wearing my favorite shade of blue, and an aromatherapy necklace (there's a leather pad inside the locket that you can put a couple drops of essential oil onto and it wafts pleasantly). I've started my first week of The Artist's Way, a self-help book about creative discovery and nurturing your creative self. I GET LAVA CAKE FOR DESSERT TONIGHT!
Keeping the good thoughts going, inch by inch as I make it through the day to get to the weekend!
OK So I thought I would take the inspiration from the blog post of @Staci Greene. You guys must go read her post. Her success on Jenny is truly inspiring and her pants are falling of... You Go Girl! And she planned an awesome day yesterday. So thought I would plan my day in a similar vein.
OK so here's the great news. My pants fit. Yup - I am rocking the size 4 Lululemon workout pants! So happy they fit. working from home today - so no great outfit, but will change into golf shorts as I think this afternoon's after work plan will be to go practice golf. With a light workload, I have been walking a ton after work At some point I should probably rest? so I'll go golf a bit.. that's restful So my sized 6 SwingbySwing golf shorts will fit as well. YAY! My Pants Fit!
OK, today went to OrangeTheory had a great workout. Endurance day - so longer push blocks on the tread followed by Active recovery - Base pace jog) then pushes and a couple of all outs. Total of 30 minutes on Treadmill and then 30 minutes on Water rower and weight bench. Single leg static lunges, rows, lunges, and some work for backs and chests and biceps. All good. 60 min total about 500+ calories. And a bunch of splat points (for your OrangeTehry enthusiasts).
Then Kodiak Pancake breakfast 1.25 servings (6 small pancakes I adore)
Next change AC filter
Get template made for Bathroom cabinet (Install in process and amazing!!)
Then look for new work project and study for work...
Lunch - Flatout, tuna, parmesan, veggies and salad
Work, Golf, Home Depot maybe to buy dinners... or lighting company to buy trim for recessed lights
Netflix - 90210 Season 3.. I am addicted.
Be the happy person you want to be. Watched this today - Awesome.
OK time to go be Happy.
You Got This guys!!! Being thin - not overeating, stocking to the plan is so worth it. My Pants Fit. Staci's Pants are falling off! Your pants will be falling off too. This is our day, our year, our decade. Let's not go start a diet again and spend a moment unhappy because of our weight.
Does anyone read these things? Leave a comment - let me know what your happy is? How your plan is going? Or more importantly, how I can help you I know y'all help me every day! Thank you,
Everyone. Is. Complaining. OMG. Today, I've had the two primary people in my life both texting me ALL MORNING upset and sad and angry about things. I'm trying hard to focus on an overdue work project, so juggling this is tough. ARRGH! So, I need to shake it off and I'm gonna do a little positivity!
1) MY PANTS DON'T FIT! This is the second day in a row they've been sliding right off of me, lol! So, I will be doing laundry tonight and cleaning up my two pretty sweater dresses that I have, so I can rock them on Thursday and Friday and show off my skinny self! The world is my runway!
2) Once I get this project done, I might get to go home early today! I've been really diligent about clearing out my paperwork the past couple days and taking care of "those nagging tasks." If I get this done before 1pm, and my client meeting at 1pm goes well, I might be on the road going home by 2pm! I plan to do a 30 minute bellydancing workout video, 30 minutes of cleaning and tidying up, and then I'm going to work on writing my novel for a couple hours, interruption-free! That way, when my dogs (and, oh yeah, "that guy I'm married to") get home at 5pm, I can spend time with them and watch a little TV, work on my Artist's Way chapter, and finish the book I'm currently reading. Oh, such a luxurious afternoon! I really hope I get to have it.
3) I had the cranberry chicken salad for lunch today, with a whole egg added for my fat serving. I'm REALLY finding that adding a sliced up egg to things is making them super tasty and filling for me! I usually have some olives or a handful of nuts for my other fat serving, but this egg once a day, thrown onto a sandwich or mixed into the salads, is just, yum, perfect!
4) Things are peaceful at the office today, the people I share the space with are all out and about, running errands, so I have the place to myself and I can sing along with my Google Home and stuff without bugging anybody!
OK, back to the grind!
Every day I am grateful to Jenny Craig for rewarding me with the opportunity to change my life. I wake up every day and while I look significantly different, my smile is what makes it worth it. For those struggling with the program, the food, their consultant just remember it is about you. This journey is what you make it, keep an open mind and remember to smile. Remember your reasons for starting this journey. We've got this!
So I gotta say, I love my JC Consultant, he's so positive and awesome and just makes me feel very "can-do." I always leave feeling in a good mood and like I can take on my upcoming week!
I was down 3 lbs at my weigh-in! So that makes about 5 pounds total lost on Jenny Craig in 3 weeks, even with a week of gaining a pound while on vacation! I'm feeling good about this.
This week, I'm trying a few things that have a little more cheese in them (like the margherita pizza) because they look good, and I'll eat them for dinner, so only my dogs really have to deal with the consequences, lol!
I managed to make it through my workout yesterday, even with my pain, and my trainer pushed me a bit too, which I think I needed. I wanted to be all self-defeating, but she wouldn't let me. I'm incredibly lucky to have good team members on my health journey with my consultant and my trainer both helping me so much!!
Today, I'm lucky because I get some time at home before I have to go in for client meetings this afternoon. I needed some introvert time, and I got some last night and today. Feeling positive so far, and I slept well, and my pain levels are back down today, so it's a good one so far!
OK, I just finished my lunch -
Classic Cheeseburger - Pretty good!
Green beans with olive oil and garlic - oh dear, I'm so over these things now, lol!
With my current plan (Rapid Results), I'm supposed to have EITHER the Cheesy Broccoli OR the Green Beans + Olive Oil twice a week (JC foods) with lunch. However, I can't have the cheesy broccoli because of my lactose intolerance, so I've only been getting the green beans. I've now had them six times (2x a week for 3 weeks) and I'm officially OVER THEM! I want to make my own instead. Arrgggh! I'm going to talk about it with my consultant today and see if there's something else I can do on my own instead, just, something about the texture has been rubbing me the wrong way this week, it's like they are squeaky on my teeth and just weird! ... OK, I'm done ranting now, I've just been priding myself on not being a picky eater, but it's also hard not to be high-maintenance with the lactose stuff.
I did not sleep so well last night due to my pain issues, and it's making it difficult to focus and be motivated today. I'm full of the "I DON'T WANNA"'s! So, tonight, I am going to self-care. I'll get home, have my White Bean Chili with some added veggies and such, and my Lemon Cake. Then, I'm going to snuggle onto the couch in my personal study, wrap a blanket around myself, and hopefully spoon with my little dog Scout (if she's not too rambunctious tonight). We are going to watch a movie - I haven't decided on which one yet, I'm debating between Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings. I just need some personal "me" time, I'm a bit of an introvert and I've been around people a LOT for the past two weeks, so my batteries need a little recharging. Plus, we are getting ready to move and just listed the house, so my body has been taxed with the cleaning and lifting and such, so I'm sure that's not helping. Definitely time for rest and replenishing my mental and physical resources!
Then, I will be ready to tackle the rest of my week! What do you do to recharge your batteries?
OK, I have a confession.
I had restaurant food tonight. I shouldn't have, because I also had crab earlier this week and that was already a splurge.
But, I also am not feeling so guilty about it... because after I had my restaurant dinner, I went home and had my Jenny Craig dessert, and I already feel fine about having my JC food tomorrow... like, this was a blip on the path. And, when I inputted it into MFP, I found I'm only about 350 calories over for the day from where I should be (and only about 750 calories over for the week, out of what should be a 10,500 calorie week... I'm on the 1500 calorie plan). Plus, the scale has been kind to me this week (so far down 4 lbs, we'll see what the official verdict is tomorrow at weigh-in), and my workouts have been stellar, if I do say so myself.
I want to keep on-track, but I also know that foregoing family dinners at a restaurant every single time would become a deprivation problem. So... I'm staying on-track at about a 91% compliance rate, and not feeling defeated that I'm not perfect (which, I am often a perfectionist, so this is a big deal for me). I need this diet to work for my life. That said, I am going to be firmer about not dining out this coming week (my week 4 starts tomorrow) since I had those couple of blips this week, just so I don't start letting myself "get away" with too much and start being self-defeating.
So, my Oopsies for today: things have been pretty busy at the office, and when that happens, I lose track of time and don't eat when I'm supposed to. It's of particular concern right now because I have 3 real estate deals all happening at once (such transactions are kind of challenging in Illinois), so everything is time sensitive. So, if something is needed "now, now, now" there really isn't much time to eat until "later, later, later."
And that's how I ended up eating half of my lunch, and my afternoon snack, at about 3pm. I fortunately managed to sneak in my entree at 12pm, so I wasn't too bad, but I was definitely feeling pretty hungry by then!
My Daisies for today: I managed to make it allllllll the way downtown to Chicago City Hall today (it's over an hour in traffic) and got fingerprinted! ... No, I didn't commit a crime. It's a requirement for anyone wanting to volunteer with Chicago Animal Care & Control. One of my big goals in life is to have a facility where I can foster several animals at a time (which I'm actually close to attaining... but I'll go into that some other time). Chicago, being a bigger city, has a lot of animals in need, so I decided to focus my efforts with them. While this may not seem like much, the benefit of this is, I will be getting a lot of experience with different animals, who will present me with a variety of challenges.
BUT, first I have to deal with "Crook County" (it's actually Cook County, but people who live around Chicago know how they really are) and their laborious intake process. The sad thing is, the process is very prohibitive, keeping more people from volunteering and depriving the shelter of helping hands. (While it does keep out dishonest folks who might not have the dogs' best interests at heart, it can also keep away a lot of well-meaning people, too).
1) You have to attend a volunteer orientation - they have them a couple times a month, so that's not a big deal.
2) You have to undergo a criminal background check - makes sense, you don't want anyone with animal cruelty history to be let in.
3) You have to get fingerprinted - and the only place to get fingerprinted is at Chicago City Hall, between the hours of 9am and 3pm, Monday through Friday. (...uh, really?)
4) After getting fingerprinted, there is a 4 to 6 WEEK processing time lag to get approved while they await the results of the fingerprinting!
5) Then, and only then, can you get trained. (training is not arduous, you come in and walk dogs with an experienced volunteer for a couple of sessions, after that, you can come in whenever you want)
So, for me, the hard part, finding time to get over and get fingerprinted, is done, and it's just a matter of time now. I just want to get in there and start walking the dogs and helping them! I will only be able to make it for a couple sessions a month, but it's something I desperately want to do, seeing all those dogs in need of time outside of their cages, some fresh air and a chance to stretch their legs. I can't wait until I can do more to help them, but for now, I'm focusing on the smaller victories that are building me up to where I want to be.
OK, not a lot of "weight loss" and stuff in this post, but, it's what I'm focused on right now and what's motivating me to stay in shape, I'll need those strong legs for exercising puppy dogs!
Also, these are my own lil' monsters, I love 'em to pieces. They are both girls. The Jack Russell Terrier is named Scout (she's a mischief maker and a tom boy) and the Lab-Chow mix is Taunie (she is the golden child who can do no wrong).
Weight loss has always been one of the hardest things that I have ever had to do. I have always been a big girl, and in my younger years I just accepted that I was bigger and that nothing was going to change.
Now that I only have forty-two pounds until my goal of 130, I find myself falling in love with myself. I feel absolutely beautiful and that is something that I have never experienced.
The one piece of advice that I can offer someone just starting out on Jenny, is to give the program a chance. I know that there are foods that you're not going to like or want to eat; just go in with an open mind. There are ways to add to your food (seasoning, spices and veggies) that will allow you to stay on plan while trying new things.
The next one is cost, yes it can be pricey, but in the end how can you put a value on your life? Looking back now, I would pay it all again, this way that I feel is priceless and I only hope that everyone that has started this journey feels it as well. For me, this journey has been about taking control of my life and my choices; for so long I was controlled by food and winning this membership gave me an advantage as well as the opportunity to take my life back.
I am no longer an obese 278.4 pound woman and I will never be her again. My name is Tricia Marie Hensley, I am a wife, mother, daughter, sister, student, business woman. There are many words that can be used to describe who I am, but that do not define me.
If I can hope for anything, it is that my words are able to help someone that is struggling on this journey. Everyone's journey is going to be different, but this forum has shown me that with a little support you can go a long way.
Love who you are, you are worth it. You have taken the first step! You've got this, we've got this!
I'm really tempted to whine today.
So, couple things about me:
1) I have chronic pain; I've had it in my hip for 12+ years (I'm in my 30's, it started right out of college) and it also periodically migrates to my back, or causes other peripheral pains throughout my back and neck
2) I'm a woman working in a male-dominated industry and I get frustrated easily by the Old Boys Club. I'm working on letting it slide off my back, but there are times where I just have to put my foot down, and I'm just not a confrontational person, so it's difficult for me to deal with those times.
Today, my chronic pain is higher than usual. I also had to deal with a very condescending older man who wanted to argue over legal terminology with me (I'm an attorney, he is not). My schedule is pretty full, and I'm tired and bordering on anxious and depressed. Plus, I'm angry at myself because I scraped someone's bumper while parking a couple weeks ago, and I am now paying the repair on that, which is an expense I just don't need, but I will never be the person who doesn't leave a note for doing something like that (Plus... I left a note, and the person is STILL requesting a cashier's check, so I have to pay the fee for it! Lady, if I didn't want to pay you, I wouldn't have left a note in the first place and just gotten away with it!).
To counteract this, I'm going to list off some positive things:
1) Tonight, I'm having a little bit of seafood for dinner (it'll be a little indulgent, but I'm not going to go crazy - I've learned I can actually handle moderation when I need to)
2) Soon, I will have my two puppy dogs by my side, wagging their tails and cheering me up with their kisses
3) I've made a little bit of money today, which is reassuring, as I'm a small business owner and sometimes get a little financially stressed
4) I gained some weight (1 pound) on vacation, but today I'm down to lower than I was before vacation
5) I managed to do my workout today, despite my back pain (it is pain that, if I keep active, won't stiffen up - it's better to be active than to rest, but sometimes I feel so defeated that I can barely move... today, I overcame that and even did some of my harder exercises on the TRX)
6) I managed to handle the condescending older man while still being classy and professional, but also firm and standing my ground.
7) I get to read a really nice book before I go to sleep tonight (Name of the Wind... almost done with it and ready to start on Book 2 of the series)
Time to power on through and finish the day strong!
Hey everyone - just a low key Saturday - Sure I walked 12 miles that was a tad strange but it was fun... (...LOL). And wanted to post a picture to say it's not just a normal day. Normal for me was gaining weight, being heavy and wishing I could go on a diet. So just checking in - and pretty sure people are sick of all my diatribes on the forum posts. I figure this is my section.. so I can be as vain or boring as I want here .No? Anyway - Off I go to JC today, Trying to not buy expensive entrees and transition more to MOMOs. (LOL I have been on maintenance for many months... and I still buy Jenny. I definitely need to go get weighed in, but I want to substitute the foods with homemade or lower cost items. When on Jenny and ever since August 2016 all I did was buy the Jenny food d, but lately am more price conscious, so why not save some money? I am reluctant - because if it ain't broke don't fix it.... But the budget beckons... and so today we shall see how I do. Maybe buy nothing? OMG. WOW.. I know I have food in the freezer... But feels like such a leap of faith. Think about the money I would spend and use it in the grocery store when I need it. .. Worst case - Jenny is 6 minutes away. OK be strong. That is my plan. Except maybe shakes.... I like that stuff now in my coffee.
OK point of Blog was to post a picture -- Toronto asked me to send one, so I snuck off Thursday eve's data to have the hostess take a photo.... Anyway... Here's why this is not just an ordinary day. I am thin!!! Does is it get old? Heck no! OK off to JC.... See how we did this week.
I am in my third week back on the program. It has been a challenge but I am staying the course. My family doctor put me on some heavy duty antibiotics for a horrible sinus infection. I found out that the antibiotic that I am taking has a side effect of rapid weight gain so I have been drinking a ton of water and staying true to the menus because the last thing I want to see, at my weekly weigh in, is jump in my weight. My first week I lost a little over a pound and then last week I lost three pounds. So very excited!! Good news, two more days of antibiotics. Yippee!!
I have some younger co-workers who are working hard to get back into shape and are trying to eat as clean as possible. They are a great inspiration to me and have helped me stay true to the program. They encourage me to drink my water and if I go to long with out eating they remind me it is time for my snack or go have lunch. It's wonderful when people care and reach out to help.
February 1st is my goal date to begin walking workouts again. I have been in physical therapy for a bum shoulder and hips that are out of whack. I'm hoping I will have made enough progress to once again add exercise back into my daily routine. Missing my walks!!
My son had is yearly physical on Tuesday and I had to share the results! From his charts he went from 133 pounds to 109 (still a little high for his height and age) but we are still working on it. He is currently at 56.7 inches tall and the doctor expects to see a growth spurt soon. She said that he looks great compared to where he was last year! She started to tell us about proper portions of fruits and veggies and I was proudly able to tell her that he eats 3-4 servings of fruit per day as well as 2-3 servings of veggies per day. BAM! While I have lost 94.4 pounds and my husband has lost 63 pounds, my son's 24 pound loss is what makes me happiest. His loss shows me that I will be successful on the maintenance program and that I can do this. It also shows me that my positive changes are making a huge difference, and that is a great accomplishment.
Thank you Jenny Craig for everything that you have done for me! I honestly believe that you have changed an entire family's life and I am and will always be eternally grateful!
So it occurred to me that one of my goals for the New year's challenge is to drink 1/2 my body weight in ounces of water a day. I recently listened to a podcast on losing weight and they were saying big huge goals dont really work for weight loss or to make significant changes. So do goals that support the longer term gola. So I guess my goal is to be healthier and reduce bloat and whatever else water does for you..... also 8 glasses a day today does not seem achievable... so thought I would blog my goal here and record my results.
OK my esteemed sister told me 1 bottle has 16 ounces of water... 4-5 bottles does seem doable
1) Goal: Drink 1/2 my body weight in ounces of water per day by end of 2018
Mini Goal - Drink minimum of 3 bottles of water Week 1 1/2 - 1/7
Morning - when possible - Drink hot water and lemon with ACV (Apple Cider Vinegar) to help internal organs do their thing
Drink only 1 glass of coffee at breakfast (can drink more other times of day (COnsider reducing) and drink 2 bottles (32 ounces) of water between breakfast and lunch
Drink 1-2 bottles of water between lunch and dinner (32 ounces)
Water during workout does not count
Day 1 Status: Tuesday: Drank 2 bottles before a late lunch and 1 after lunch total of 48 ounces (Plus 12 or so in my Morning drink that I don't count). See how I do tomorrow...or maybe I should include my hot water with lemon and ACV too? I think I will measure it and include it in my tally.
2/3 OK have to recommit and drink more water!!! Coffee gets in the way and my compulsiveness for a hit... something flavorful... Let's do this this week!
The last six months of 2017 were some of the best moments of my life. In June I won Jenny memberships for myself and my husband, and we began our Jenny journey together. 26 weeks later and I have lost 89.8 pounds, my husband has lost 66.2 pounds and our son has lost 22.4 pounds. Our lives will be forever changed, and I am extremely grateful.
In 2018 we will all meet our goal weights and I could not be happier. I look forward to fishing on the Mesa, there were so many lakes that I could not fish at due to the lengthy hikes and I look forward to being able to fish every (fishable) lake up there. Also, I look forward to celebrating my 37th birthday half of myself and smoke free for 1 year and 6 months. I also look forward to the 'Biggest Loser' makeover that I am going to give myself once my goal is met, a new me deserves a new look and I am excited.
Since starting this journey I have had faced many people (even loved ones) that judged this journey and still do this day doubt that I will be able to maintain it once I am not eating the planned menus. I will not let them or their words get me down, I will prove to them that I can and will do this. I will be successful, all of the weight that I have lost since I started this journey is gone, I will not be going back to the woman that I was. I am happier, healthier, and I look forward to living a long life.
As this year ends and you reflect on 2017, what are you most thankful for? What do you look forward to in 2018?
Happy New Years to my Jenny family. XOXO